-=Ah_KInG world... A Fallin Angel=-

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices, either tells what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.
It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds...but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship...one leads to another and the process is irreversible...the best of lovers is the greatest of friends!!! I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend. I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want... then I realized it was YOU, too bad cos it's you can't have... I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me...and you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go to find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free...

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?" Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love, we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them till they are in the arms of someone else...

Food for thought, think of this.. Have you really cared for someone more than you expected? Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name? Will you???

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits. When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing. If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using... True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay, the harder it is to leave...and you can never go without leaving your prints behind... Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Love them like a river because a river flows forever... Love doesn't have to have a Happy Ending, cos love doesn't have to end at all.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again."

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall!
[Taken frm: xiaoteckteck.diaryland.com]

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 4:07 PM

Friday, October 22, 2004

Exam is really comin round the corner... i have yet to start on my revision.... Juz hope tat i will really start 2molo... if not i will not have enough time to study at all....

Exam Schedule
CP4001 A&P Chem - 27/10
MS2125 Basic Maths - 29/10
CP4088 MIP - 01/11
CP5034 CPPA - 05/11

Saw Teck Ming durin the A & P Chem revision lesson, i was kind of worried when i didn't saw her there.... i thought she was sick.... but she appeared before our lecturer started the revision wif us.... Tis few daes are very crucial to us... i dont wan her to get sick or anithin like tat, will be prayin for her health for the next 2 weeks.... Hope tat she is revising well for her semester exam.... But seein her 2dae was good, haven been seein her like for the past 3 or 4 days.... Yup, though it may seem a very short time.... i miss her alot.... But now is the time for study.. i shldn't be distracted by anything else but study itself..... Maybe after the exam... i will try askin her out... Hope she won't sae no to me...

I have even thought of a joint class outin wif the pple frm 1A07, hope tat they will welcome the idea..... i noe tat somehow we have gotten off wif a bad start wif the class since the first day of sch... but still we are like gonna see each other anywhere in our sch compound..... Jus come out together to have fun & be frens..... Its better to make more frens then enemies in life......I noe tat tis idea may seem weird & i won't noe if they would even show up for tis joint class outin.... But seriously, i think tis joint class outin will help to strengthen the realtionship between both classes & tat we may get to noe each other better......

Good luck to all my classmates in DCHE 1A03 & DCP 1A07 for the exams.....Hope tat we all can do well for the exam together.... =] !!

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 10:51 PM

Monday, October 18, 2004

Found tis @ her blog.. Found it intrestin & thought of sharin tis....

-=The Bus & Love Theory=-
Love is like waiting for a bus.When the bus comes, you look at it and you say to yourself "eeee...so full....cannot sit down, I'll wait for the next one." So you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.

Then the second bus came, you looked at it you said, "eeee...this bus is so old...so shabby!" So you let the bus go and again, decided to wait for the next bus.

After a while another bus came, it's not crowded, not old but you said, "eeee...not air conditioned...better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it was getting late. You panicked and jumped immediately inside the next bus.It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus!And you wasted your time and money just to get into the wrong one! Even if an air conditioned bus comes, you can't ensure that the air conditioned bus won't break down or whether or not the air conditioner will be too cold for you. Wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance. If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you just press the red button and get off the bus!

Hey, who said life is fair??? The best thing to do is be observant and open-minded. If it doesn't suit you, get off. I'm sure you've had this experience before. You saw a bus coming (the bus you want of course). You flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not see you and zoomed pass you! It just wasn't meant for you!

The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating the bus by giving it a chance depends totally on you. If you haven't made any choice, WALK! Walking is like being single. The good side of it is you can still choose any bus you want...the rest who couldn't afford another ride would just have to be content with the bus they rode on, ugly or not. Also, sometimes it is better to choose a bus you are already familiar with rather than to gamblewith a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then again, life wouldn't be complete without the risks involved.

But there is one bus that I failed to tell you about -- the Bus you do not have to wait for, the Bus that will stop on its own and ask you if you wish to come inside, then take you for a joy ride for the rest of your life. Hope you get to ride on that bus! =)

Like i sae before... everyone shld be given a chance to be love or to love others.... There is no harm in givin a chance...i hope tat you will give me tis chance when i ask you the next time Teck Ming....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 10:55 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Happen to saw Josephine todae, outside my holdin area for my church @ PLMGPS.... Didn't noe tat her holdin church was also there, her church happens to be @ PLMGSS..... Wat a coincidence.... Its been a long time since i saw her.... Still could remember the time i tried to court her in secondary sch..... Its been so long, though it ended wif a sad ending, i aint tat unhappy abt it.... Seein her todae made me feel kind of happy.... But somehow deep inside me, there is a feelin tat she is remindin me tat i shld carry on lovin Teck Ming....

I was msgin josephine all the time while i was havin Youth ministry.... we had lots of things to talk abt.... Then while i was in the youth ministry.... There was a talk goin on, the topic was on spiritual gift... i wonder wat my spiritual gift might be? Would it be the gift of healin? The gift of tounges?The gift of wisdon? Wat ever it maybe... it would soon be revealed to me.... But there are other gifts given to us by god.... i am sure of one thing & tat is i have the gift of a good heart...=] hahaz...

The past few daes have been really tiring for me.... I have been havin tests since thursdae... & 2molo i will be havin MIP, looks like i am not goin to do well for the test 2molo.... tried readin up on it... but still unable to get anithing into my head.... Well, i think i shall try readin it up 2molo, i hope a fresh mind will help.... But if i don do well for tis test.... i shld make it up durin my semester exam... must study hard and do well for all my semester exam paper, can't afford to fool around too much.... Must do well..... i will be prayin for Teck Ming as well... i noe she is kind of worried abt her MIP as well..... but i believe tat she will do well.... she is a smart girl...

i dont wan to fail ani modules tis semester, i wan to move onto the next stage wif all my frens & classmates, they are a great bunch of pple to be wif..... So lets all work hard together pple, lets work hard to advance to the next stage..... Well, the same goes for all my other frens in SP & as well as my buddy class, DCP 1A07....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 10:31 PM

Monday, October 11, 2004

Well, jus a question for everyone to think.... Wat is love? I think tat love in 2dae's world is like findin a really nice lookin person who has a really good personality..... Or also known as Mr/Ms Perfect..... Well, tis is wat the world has been showin to the people all these years.....ever since we were born into tis world... we have been shown wat "Love" is like.... Handsome boy meets Beautiful girl, both fall in love.... Then comes some obstacle in their live, overcome all of it & then have a happy ending... Sounds very fairy tale like aint it? Wouldn't u also wan tis type of love?

Sure...Y not... tis is wat most of us would like... Livin happily ever after.... But lets consider tis.... How abt an ugly person falls in love wif a beautiful/handsome person...they both love each other so much & also have a happily ever after story as well.....Would u still consider tis type also a wonderful ending.... Guess some would start thinkin tat tis ain't rite at all.... Some would even think tat the ugly person shouldn't exist at all.... Now here is the problem in the world we face 2dae.... Tis is quite a realisitic world.... You got the looks, then u sure have mani pple going after u.... U dont have.... well, its looks like u are down on ur luck.... Well, personally, i don't think tis is the wae we shld be like.... Our mind have been clouded by the media on wat love is really about.... Many people have been searchin for their Mr/Ms perfect all their life... yet... none of them could find such person & have wasted their life lovin a person who dosen't exist then someone who is there to love them....

Yi cheng was rite on one thing, even if u do find ur so called Mr/Ms perfect... they aint tat perfect after all, they surely have some flaw in them.... i noe of a fren tat once told me tat she found her Mr perfect.... he had VERY good looks, so called "GOOD" personality & tat he was the one for her....But wouldn't u noe.... they broke after a month... the reason? He aint tat great aniwae, he treats me like some sort of prisoner... must report everything to him.... Dont let me go out wif frens & other stuff like tat....So is he tat mr perfect aniwae? Well, others would be like rejectin anyone else who tries to love them in order tat they will hope to meet "them" one day....

How abt those who give excuses jus because they don't like the person.... Like, "I'm sure u will find someone else better then me, someone else worth of ur love" Come on, tis is bullshit! You are jus avoidin the person...Are u easing his/her pain of love when u sae tis? Not really....

Now here is my answer to u all people.....
All those of u who have pple who are goin after u... expressin their love to u yet u reject them becoz u think tat u are not "worth" their undyin love.... Then u can give urself a slap.... Where all u pple juz complain tat there is aint love in the world & tat no one loves u at all.... Then those who tried to love u & u reject them, arent they the one tryin to give u love.... Irony aint it? U pple would onli understand the significance of love when u lose tat someone who is tryin to love u or tat he/she has change into someone else u like and they don't have ani feelings for u..... U pple won't noe how they feel unless u were in their shoes for jus a dae.... Till u taste the pain they are goin thru....

I had been thru tis like twice, i can understand the people who are experiencing tis at the moment, to u pple who are sufferin in pain becoz of love, don give up on life or love, but have faith tat the person u tired lovin will some dae understand tat heart of urs.... Whereas for u pple who are rejectin these people, pls think abt their feelins, they are the one who needs to love pple as well... give them a chance... somedae u will find tat tis person might be the one for u..... Never sae never to a person.... but instead, give him/her tat chance to prove it to u tat u are worth of their lovin.....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 10:22 PM

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

Its been awhile since i have came back in here to add abt my life... Well, now i am back & i shall try to write abt everything tat has happen for the past few months..... Well, finally met the girl, Teck Ming, really love her tat much but haiz..... she aint goin to really accept me... told me tat she wont give me a chance at all..... Maybe she dosen't noe me tat well yet.... but each day i keep tellin myself tat she is worth so much of my love, thought it may seen to be kind of painful when she told me tat she won't give me a chance at all.... i am still tryin to forget all the pain.... life really turn upside down after tat dae when she told me tat she don like me..... now every time i see her... it seems tat i am on bad terms wif her... i don't wan her to feel so akward whenever she sees me.... i jus wan her to be the way she used to be when we both met & sae hi to each other for the first time.... i miss so much the daes talkin to her online.... i jus pray & hope tat God will some how show tis heart of gold of mine to her... thought i may not have the looks.... i posses onli a heart of love.....Whenever i think of her... my hearts beats faster & faster.... Thinkin of her alwaes makes me happy.... but seein her sad or sick ahces my heart..... Wonder if she ever goin to consider tis kind of thinkin as being foolish or wat.... if onli she knew tat there is someone who is there to love her..... And tats me..... but it seems tat love is blind & i have been past, not even noticed....Sad to sae.... But i never given up hope tat i & her will somehow be lovers one dae.... Everyone shld be given a chance to be loved..... no matter wat they may be like... now tats wat i believe..... this is wat i call as True love.....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 7:28 PM