=Ah_KInG world... A Fallin Angel=--

Monday, February 28, 2005

- Songs of Love -

Haven been home for the past few days, was away on CLS LTC ( Leadership Training Camp )....But before goin off for the camp, heard abt 3 songs on the radio tat speak of my heart at the moment... But.. i guess i will jus pick out the main part of the songs which i think means alot to me....

Everything I Own by Bread
You taught me how to love,
What its of, what its of.
You never said too much,
but still you showed the way,
and I knew from watching you.
Nobody else could ever know
the part of me that can't let go.

And I would give anything I own,
Give up my life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again.

If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough by Don Henley & Patty Smyth
I don't wanna lose you,
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have sombody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And I don't really matter
To anyone, anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

Sometimes songs like tis speak of the heart very well... this were 3 songs tat speak of my heart very well before the camp...And would u have guessed tat all 3 songs were played on the radio on the same day.... but all on different time....however the most freaky thing abt it was when i was thinkin her....the song started playin...

Anway camp was kind of fun, met lots of new people & also saw her thru out the camp, my rival was there. but i didnt do much abt it either.... was glad to see her.... was jus back frm camp yesterday & have slept for the past 12hrs or so....cant really remember much... Anyway.... her bdae will be comin soon, gotta do some shoppin soon, this gift i guess will be very special....

- I may be a fool in love, but i am that fool who loves you, with my entire heart & soul -

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 8:22 AM

Thursday, February 24, 2005

- Life's Fuckin Screwed -

Dont u ever wonder wat went wrong and y things ended up in the worst way it could ever be & tat u never ever thought of it....?My life is kind of fuckin screwed up now... the girl i wanted to love seems to be further and further away frm me... & my love rival is tryin ways to show tat he like Calida as well.... So wat did i ever do tis time to deserve such treatment...?! If i could jus undo these mistakes, i will & give anything jus to undo them....! God! is tis the way how i shld end again? To see me be ripped once again by the torment of love? I made the mistake to give Josephine up 4 years ago.... Now i dont wan to make another mistake to give Calida up.... I noe i was so wrong to have treated Josephine like tat... I noe tat i shldnt have show so much care & concern tat scared her.... But frm the bottom of my heart... all i ever wanted is to love tat particular person & tats y i wan to care for tat person.... Will calida & josephine noe tat the care & concern i have for both of them was because i love them? it was never meant to cause them any harm or wat.... But jus to care only....

Am i really cursed? Cursed not to love other people? God! u noe how impt she is to me... And how special she is to me.... Do u noe how i wish to jus fall asleep now and then never wake up frm it, coz the pain i am gettin is gettin worst & worst now.... i love her so much & it aches me so much to see her act in a way i never understood or seen before.... i miss those days wif her... i still remember those days when she was so sad... i would always be there to cheer her up... maybe talk to her on msn or even have a small prayer for her to ask god to cheer her up for me.... When she has done well for something or she is happy, i would also be there to congratulate her.... Now tat the tables have finally turned... will she ever noe how sad i am or how happy it would be like for me to talk wif her again? Will she be there tis time for me? Will she have a heart to care for me tis time.. coz i really need her alot tis time...

Zayana told me to have patience... but is patience good enough? Maybe she is rite? i do need patience....So many things to sae, so many thing i wan her to noe.... But there is one thing i noe & tat is i am always there for her... watever she is goin thru in life, good or bad, i am always there to see she take her every step & always there to pray for gd health & her safety....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 5:19 PM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

- So lost -

Went for the charity carnival held by CLS today....Was there to help out in a stall.... Was kind of a excitin day though, jus returned frm Clementi there, was playin Lan before tat....So took my bath & i am here to blog wat has happen for the day, maybe tis entry will be a entry tat will be here for a very long time before i decide to blog again...

Some things are best not known for particular reason.... I dont noe... But now tat i have known it... its kind of really worryin & depressing for me to noe it... there is a third party between me & Calida...... i feel kind of so lost rite now.... perhaps i am the unlucky one in life? the one who wans to love yet he cant love? I dont noe... the other guy seems to have it all...looks, charm. & maybe a good heart.... whereas for me? All i have is only a heart.... A heart tat is willin to love... do i still stand a chance in anything in life? I love her like i love God.... i would give anything up jus to love her... but no matter how hard i try in life... i jus cant love the person i wan to love... can someone tell me y? all i ever hear is tat there is always somewhere better frm the person i love... to tell u the truth, if there was someone else whom is better then you.. i would have love tat person then you... Becoz i love you, tats y i am there for you, because i am there for you, i will forever be by ur side till the very end of time...

So God, my prayer to you... is there a chance for me to fall in love wif the person i really love? Will u answer me? Or do i have to wait for a long time before u give me my answer? By then, will there still be tat person? Will i still be able to love her? Coz sometimes i am really tired from lovin someone in life... coz when i really love, i love wif my whole heart jus like i love you, God.... It takes so much out of me every single time, and each time it takes a large part of me away.... i feel i am losin both her & myself.... Will there be angles to comfort me now? Or will misery engulf me whole? i am lost once again, i am seekin the way out to find her again.... Will u show me the way to find Calida, the girl i love so dearly? Answer me God...... Pls! I never had the chance to love someone who i really wan to love...I always believe in love, and tat every person whom u love must be loved wif ur whole heart....

- I never knewn tat my love story could get as worst as tis, perhaps i am the unlucky one in life, the one who wans to love yet he cant love -

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 11:34 PM

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

- Industrial Visit -

Woke up at 6am tis morning, found out tat i forgot to charge my Hp the nite before, so borrowed my mum's hp to use for the day... YC also bought his new Hp already.. Looks really nice to me... Wonder if the functions are also gd? LOL.. Anyway... if i do wan to change Hp, then i gotta wait for the next 1 to 2 years like tat before my plan ends & i go change another hp...

Ms Ong, our maths tutorial teacher was very nice, gave us each a Ang pow wif a Chocolate gold coin in it.. So had mathcad pract, then followed by Maths tutorial....Then had Mrs Tham CPPB lecture...Was kind of feelin slpy though, was noddin my head every now and then when hearin her talk...its not because she is borin or wat... i was like kind of tired tis few days...Dont noe y....So yar, went out of class halfway to buy a cup of coffee to drink.... So class ended at 12pm, got another 3 hrs to spare before reportin for industrial visit... Went to play Badminton & Table Tennis wif half of the class... Half of the class was like at the sports hall there...LOL... So played till 3pm like tat then report to the Admission Block to wait to board the bus to go to the Serching Plough, the medicine/drug industry....

Poor edmund, was kind of bullied by YC, who was knockin his helemt all the time wif a pen... Then while we were waitin to go over to another plant tat time... we were sittin outside, the ground there had some granites stones... YC took one and threw it at Edmund helemt... When it hit edmund helmet... the lot of us guys who were there were laughin away... before u noe it, each were pickin up stones & started throwin at each other helmet.... The whole thing was kind of long, most of the time was jus standin, listenin to the tour guides & walkin abt.... So left the place at around 6pm, coz our group was kind of the last grp to reach back the guard house.. Our class were split into 2 grps intially before leavin to each plant...

So had dinner wif Gary, Mc & YC @ FC5 KFC, before goin home.... now back home, kind of tired, dont intend to do some work on the RWP report, guess will wake up early 2molo jus to do abit.... My coms kind of sucky... Its infected wif a virus....i guess its a matter of time before it crashes....Lucky, manage to back up most of the files.... inculdin my sch work...Guess tis comin few weeks got lots of work to do... got my gems pics to take, coz submission date is first week of march.. if dont submit, will fail......(-.-!) Dont wan to repeat tis or any other modules i have.... Then exams seems to be also round the corner... better study now or will die...!

- It might seem hard to explain why somethings happen in such a way.. but it jus does, somethings dont need an explanation, jus like Love... -

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 10:25 PM

Monday, February 14, 2005

- My story -

Well... my story will still continue frm here.... but how it is like, will be a very different thing.... Yar, so most of the girls in my class are kind of happy wif the gifts i have for them... Each of them got a rose & a testube filled wif beads & water as a gift for Valentine Day... i think tis day shld be shared wif all... Beside a day of love, its also the day of frenship...

Amanda was also very nice, gave everyone of us chocolate to eat... Guess i will be increasin in size also after eatin it... Eat too much stuff durin the Chinese New Year.. Guess better be goin for exercise soon... Yar, Yanti & zayana hug me.... LOL.. they were kind of happy when they recieve both the flowers & test tube as well.... Its always enjoyable to see other people smile & be happy.... Guess when i can really be happy is the time i joke, laugh & smile wif everyone... The only thing i have lefy is Weili's gift, she didnt come 2dae to sch.. guess i will be givin her 2molo...

So wat did i do wif the special gift tat i had, i gave it to Calida... I never had a feelin like tis before, the feelin of losin someone so soon... Coz i realised tat if i didnt give her the sunflower & the test tube 2dae, i dont noe when will i ever have the chance....she went off halfway durin IDEAS, i was worried tat i wont see her again in class.... So i took the flower & the gift & ran all the way to the child care centre where she was goin... Issac was kind of shocked to see me outside the child care centre...i walk up to her and ask her if i could talk to her... i had no fear, i was my usual self before her, so wantin to talk to her.... though she was kind of unwilling to talk to me... but it was only after issac & jasmine told her to talk wif me for awhile... i thank them for tat... i was kind of wrong in judgin them...thanx for them tis time....

Yes.. i finally understood the reason why she treated like tat... though she sae tat she was to blame... i think tis time the fault is mine... wat i did to the girl i like in secondary sch has happen again... too much care & concern causes the person to be afraid... So frm the bottom of my heart, Calida, I am truly sorry tat i had treated u like tat...she told me tat there are better girls out there for me too... but i told her tat i have hear tis too many times & even told her tat its not as simple as u wan tat person to forget the other person he really love/like.... i told her tat i wanted to still be her fren, though she told me the same things i heard long time ago, no feelins & stuff, but the heart is still there, its hard to change it no matter wat..... She accepted the gift and the sunflower, i am kind of glad... Thank you God....!

So i told her to stop ignorin me after i pass her the gift & also the flower, i walk off in the other direction, back to class... she wen off wif Issac, Jasmine, Cleon & Jim to the library.... Now as a fren, i can only care to a certain extent, silently... but no matter how much the things have change in life, she is always tat someone special in my heart.... No doubt abt it....And i will always show my care for her.... I still love her....alot... Givin up will not be an option i have...i will continue to love her as much as i can.....So my story between me & her... i guess it will carry on.... but to where, i dont noe.. but i do hope for it to turn out the way i wish/wan it to be....

* Happy Valentine Day to all again! =] *

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 11:59 PM

- Quiz -

I was kind of bored , so went over to amanda's blog to see wats there to do.. i found tis quiz to do...

What's Your Trademark Tune?
Terry, your trademark tune is Black Eyed Peas' "Where is the Love"

Hey, sweet thing. There's nothing not thoughtful and goodhearted about you. In fact, you don't need to ask where the love is, because you are the love. A rare breed, you often put others' needs above your own, and you'd go the extra mile for friends and strangers alike.

It's important to you that you make a difference in the world — one action and one day at a time. Helping people, regardless of the career you choose, will probably be at the top of your to-do list. And there's nothing more loving than that.

Guess tats all....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 9:11 AM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

- Gifts & Flowers -

haha.... at last.. finally done wif my gift for Valentine Day... took me quite some work though... Got all the flowers & stuff done... All i need to do is pack them properly..And i can give it 2molo....LOL! Jus wan to wish everyone a "Happy Valentines Day!!"

*Endless Love - Tis is the name of tis bouquet*

Found tis bulletin at frenster... Its quite nice... a person wifout looks but a very nice & lovin heart gets the girl he loved....:

He was not handsome... But he had feelings... One day, he felt in love with a woman... A woman he really had a crush on... But he realized that he was not handsome... So he kept it deep inside his heart...

He was not handsome... Knowing this, he still approached the girl he admired... Upon approaching her, he asked her name and asked for her number... They came into contact with each other... The guy was happy and he felt nice talking to the lady...

He was not handsome... He had to remember this all the time... He knew he couldnt say out his wish to the lady... However, one day, he took up the strength to call that lady... When hewas about to pick up the reciever, the phone rang.. It was her... His crush.... His lady of his dreams... She asked him out on that night.. There was no reason for him to say, "NO..." That night, they went to a restaurant for dinner..

He was not handsome... This was proven to him at that night... When the lady told him that she had a crush on a guy... He was crushed into pieces by his own crush... but he didnt say a word.. He knew it.. He was not handsome...

He was not handsome... and he knew he wont get his girl of his dream... So he intended to help the lady out... He took the lady to the guy whom she had a crush on... After a week, he saw the lady dating with the guy... He knew that there is no more hope for him...

He was not handsome... and this made him loose his love... He just kept his feelings deep inside his heart... But it was okay for him... as his love was happy with the guy she loved..

He was not handsome.. but maybe his powerful love brought his lady back to him... One day, the lady came all the way crying to him..She said to him that she lost her virginity and the guy dumped him... She was all in tears and didnt know where to go...

He was not handsome... but he loved her... He wiped the tears off the lady and gave a warm hug... The lady felt the warm feel gush through her nerves and touch her heart deep inside... She realized that this is her true love... He was not handsome... but he found his love finally... and he was happy...

*At the end of tis bulletin, someone posted tis along wif it.... its says:*
" P/s: looks are not really the most important thing in love..Consider the feelings of the ppl around you..You might just find that true love of yours..He may not be handsome..but he might love you more than anyone could ever love you.. and that is greater than some handsome idiots who doesn't love u... "

So wat will be my story like 2molo? will she be glad tat there is someone who loves her or will she jus get mad coz there is tat particular someone there to love her... For me.. i am glad tat i have loved her... i am truly blessed tat i was able to talk to her back then... And till now, the time i first met her & all the other wonderful meomeries still lives on in my mind & my heart.... So when someone questions me abt love, how much i would give to fall in love & to love? My answer to them will be, "Anything & everything jus to love tat particular someone...." So to tat particular girl in my heart, Calida Wan, I Love You more then anything in tis world.....
Tis words are truly frm the bottom of my heart...

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 9:09 PM

Saturday, February 12, 2005

- Chu San -

Haha...! Went to some of the lecturers' house today to "bai nian".... Anyway, invited all those who are goin to the teacher's house to "bai nian" to come my house to meet, at the same time, enjoy themselves while they are here... So the plan was to first travel to Mrs Ser house then to Mr Ting, followed by Dr Voon then lastly Mrs Leong.... At first meet Mrs Ser at 11.30am, all of them gathered at my place except MC, who was still on his way to my place.... He got no Hp(Forgot to pay bill), so kind of hard to contact him.... So had to send the rest of the guys, Wilson, Jim, Clarence, Chee Kwan, Yi Cheng & Thomas off to Mrs Ser's house first...

Had to wait for MC coz he was confirm comin to my place.... So me & Amanda waited for him before we took a Taxi down to Mrs Ser house... She lived at East Coast Rd there... Her house looks really nice... The we go there and sit around, play cards & chatted wif Mr ser before leavin her place to Mr Ting house @ Dover there.... Me, YC, MC & Chee Kwan took the taxi again tis time, Mrs Ser offered to drive the rest to Mr Ting house... So nice of her.... Saw Mr Ting house, Though looks kind of small... but his house very nice, looks cosy & has a very nice style & touch.... When enter the front door, can see a small pond.... Sat around his house, Mr Ting played Big2 wif us... He won the first round!!! Wha Lao, Mr Ting is really gd at the game... But we had to visit Dr Voon @ Hill View Heights Condo

So we left Mr Ting house & immediately went over to Dr Voon house, he was happy to see us & welcomed us into his house, we sat down & chatted wif Dr Voon, then we started playin cards again... Ritual cards playin at every teacher house...LOL! This time, Dr Voon dont noe how to play Big2, so we played Blackjack together as a group.... Dr Voon's son, helped him, Father & son pair, told him if they needed to take an extra card... We had so much fun & laughter while playin.... After our stayed at Dr Voon's place, We had to visit one last teacher, Mrs Leong.... Amanda had to leave early to visit her fren back @ Serangoon... So left all of us guys who went over to Mrs Leong's place.... But we stop over at Clementi Hawker Centre to have our lunch before goin over... Mrs Leong told us to wait outside the gate of Clementi ITE, she wanted to drive us into her house... WOW! Can u believe it, she really did drive us into her house & it took her 2 trips to get the whole grp of us to her place...

Mrs Leong looks nice & the place she stay is very windy & quiet.... Next time got chance, also buy a house there... LOL! We sat at her place, got lots of jokes, chatted alot & even chio Edmund to come down to Mrs Leong house... At first he didnt wan to come down, but after Mrs Leong talk to him.... He came down... Mrs Leong took us to walk around her house there nearby before edmund came.... Then close to 6pm, all of us decided to go off & would u believe me if i told u tat she offered to drive us out to the bustop & MRT station.... Believe me now... She did...! LOL! Very nice of her rite?!

Anyway, was kind of glad tat we have such nice teachers like Mrs Ser, Mr Ting, Dr Voon & Mrs Leong.... And it is really wonderful to go visit them durin NewYear... LOL... So yar.. after visitn them, me, YC & Thomas decided to go watch the movie Constantine @ PS... Look for my previous post abt the movie..

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 12:20 AM

Friday, February 11, 2005

- Constantine -

Went watchin movie Wif Thomas & YC today.... Tis is really nice movie... I recommend it to you people, go watch it.... Its really nice!

Constantine:
Constantine tells the story of irreverent supernatural detective John Constantine (Keanu Reeves), who has literally been to hell and back. When Constantine teams up with skeptical policewoman Angela Dodson (Rachel Weisz) to solve the mysterious suicide of her twin sister (also played by Weisz), their investigation takes them through the world of demons and angels that exists just beneath the landscape of contemporary Los Angeles. Caught in a catastrophic series of otherworldly events, the two become inextricably involved and seek to find their own peace at whatever cost.

* Click on the Pic to get to the Movie Website*

Trailer - U need Quicktime to view tis trailer

Go watch it... i give 4 stars out of 5 for tis movie, tis is my personal ratin.... Its nice... Lots of action & abit of a thriller.... A wager between Heaven & Hell, a movie abt Angels & Demons & also abit on Christainity....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 11:40 PM

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

- Chu yi -

Kind of tired... One whole day wif lots of relative.. but i guess its kind of fun, seein all of them like this only once every year... I mean in a way tat u get to see all ur relatives get together at ur house & then u interact wif them... Woke up at 7am tis morning, 跟 my parents 拜年 had to go over to my uncle house to pick up my grandma over to our house...

Went over to my uncle house wif both my parents & brother, then took the oranges & then 跟 my uncle 拜年, after tat, took my grandma back home.... by then it was 10am in the morning.... Went back home for an hour before the guest & relatives statred to pour into our house... I had to prepare so many drinks & bring it out to the living room to let them drink... One of my relatives told my mum tat i was very nice & helpful, but my mum told them tat i only do tis once a year only... Other then tis CNY period, i dont even help her at all.... (-.-!) Where got? i got help my mum all the time at home... LOL... alrite... Maybe not all the time...

So more & more guest kept on comin in till around 4pm in the afternoon where my grandma left the house to go back to my uncle's place... was kind of tired & maybe slpy.. coz i was drinkin cocktail at the back of the house, yup... i made the cocktail myself...& yes... it does contain alcohol, I was mixing orange squah syrup, 7up & Vodka Absoulte together.... However durin tat afternoon, i suddenly thought of calida... i was wonderin how her visitin is like so far... i did sent her a Chinese new year greetin the nite before....But as usual, no reply or no back greetings at all...Nvm.. i am fine wif tat, but i was kind of really missin her alot...Was thinkin of her all the time.... Anyway, i had to go to my "Gu ma" house, my dad wanted to go see & 跟 my Gu Ma 拜年, she is my father's sister.... But i was kind of slpy & i fell asleep on the car on our way...My mum woke me up when we arrived at my Gu Ma's place... Sat around their house for an hour or so.... before leavin their place, went home for dinner...

Today's collection is kind of good, got lots of money... hehe~ now can get some things i wan after new year... But must be thrifty.... must spend wisely... LOL... guess i will be slpin soon, got to prepare for 2molo guest & relatives, maybe i will go some other place visitin, haven visit my mother side relatives....

- Missin her like never before. A stronger feelin, so strong tat I can't explain. -

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 10:40 PM

Monday, February 07, 2005

- Gifts -

At last, manage to get the things for Valentine day..... guess i will have to start workin on it soon... so as the get ready the gifts on monday.... So much work to do.. but i guess its gonna be one of the best Valentine day i am gonna have? Spend close to $100 already... But then i think abt it... i think it is worth it.... =D

Ok... i did do some testin already... & the gift has a prob.... guess gotta come up wif a solution soon.... anyway.. i went for shoppin for the gifts 2dae wif YC & MC.... so yar.. Only YC & me got the stuff we need... Poor MC, wanted to do some cup wif he & his girlfren photo on it....but was kind of late in givin in his photo.... Coz if he gave 2dae.. we had to wait till next week before we can the cups... by then... it will be past Valentine day.... So we didnt do it... Poor MC, had to go around other places to find his gift.. As for me, i had to go home for dinner... Catch a ride frm my dad.... Coz i was near his office....

2molo i will be goin back to Sec sch to see my teachers, guess some or most of them have already left the sch.... I am not sure y but there are still some teachers who are still there... i hope to see my form teacher.... Mr Lee Hang Hwa... & also my D&T teacher Mr Lee Boon Siang... This 2 are my favourite teacher..... LOL... Wonder if they have change in apperance anot? Then i also heard tat there is a new principal... Heard tat tis principal is very "niao", any thing also wan to say... Haiz... 2molo go sch will see liao.... Any way.. i found another song called Glory of Love by North...

Glory of love - North
Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things i want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes i just forget
Say things i might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

You'll keep me standing tall
You'll help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time i will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love

Before i go... Jus wanna wish all my frens & love ones a Happy Chinese New Year, may you all have a properous year & tat all ur wishes come true....
<*~ HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! ~*>

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 10:09 PM

Saturday, February 05, 2005

- A Cut -

Started the day wif a game of basketball wif my neighbour & brother early in the morning.... Played for abt for 2 hrs before goin off to the newly open prata shop near my house to have breakfast.... Then we went off to the Club near our house to chit chat.... We bought some drinks and sat down & talk abt alot of things before headin back home...

Dad came back home at abt 4pm today, brought back alot of things... but wat pleases me most was the Vodka Absolute bottle he brought back home jus for me.... I told him to get for me before he left singapore for his business trip.... LOL! So guys next time u come over my place durin the new year, do ask for a drink... Hmmm.. i think i am gettin more & more alcohol addicted... Better not... if not will be no good for my body....

Went for a haircut also 2dae.. Hair kind of thick, so went for a cut..... Came back home to take a bath, cut myself near my lip while shaving..... Never happen before, must be something bad has or is goin to happen, i wonder wat it is... Went for dinner wif my family at some coffee shop at Bishan.... Then bought cartons of Soft drinks frm the NTUC near my home.... 2nite got one movie by Stephen Chow, must watch.... LOL.. i love his movies....Damn funny...

I wonder how she is now.... Hows her day been.. But i cant ask her.. i am afraid tat i will piss her off again.. i dont noe... maybe i have been bad mouth by some people? So tats y i am in tis sorry state? i am really missin her alot now.. and each time i think of her... my heart seems to ache alot.... so many things have happen & most of it are unhappy memories.... i can forget abt all the other things she have done to me... but i cannot or have not understand y she acted so differently tis very time....Maybe i will try msgin her tis comin Chinese New Year week? i hope to clear things up wif her soon.... i am truly, madly deeply in love wif her....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 9:38 PM

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

- She -

At last... manage to meet the Sports comm people of the CLS Club.... And yes, i am part of the family now... there are some up-comin events like farewell party for the seniors & LTC(Leadership trainin camp) to attend in preparation for the upcomin FO Camp....I am intendin to join tis few events... wif my fren Tze hao... LOL... hope i will enjoy myself mixin around wif the sports comm people and frm there to other comm people as well.. i do hope to interact wif Calida somehow within the club.....

Now let me tell u pple how special Calida is to me.... She is the one who showed me wat love is, she is the one who rekindled my passion to love.... Jus when i gave up love after the 4 years incident in secondary sch....The second girl who is able to make me so emotional.... she has become such a large part of my life.... I treasure her alot no matter wat....

Still hangin around here.... But very tired coz i reach back home like an hour plus ago... Back frm sch....And YES... i was in sch the entire time.... Though i at least did some study on my microbio, which i still have a test 2molo... its still not enough, guess i have to read up more and do the tutorial again to get better understandin... Before i go now.. pray for a fresh mind 2molo & tat the passion to study come back soon... & also the strenght to continue lovin her.. & also the ability to interact wif alot of people in the CLS club & be frens wif them... i dont hope to have any enemies.... hope i can be frens wif issac, jasmine & her plus their grp of frens....

Ah_KInG fell from the sky 11:19 PM