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Girls:
[Amanda]
[Aisyah]
[Calida Wan]
[Clarissa]
[Erdiana]
[Estrella]
[Jas. Chan]
[Jo. Wang]
[Lijuan]
[Qing Hui]
[Winnie]
[Xian Ping]
[Yanti]
[Yu Fang]
[Yun Zhi]
[Zayana]
Guys:
[Chin Chong]
[Edward]
[Hernshung]
[Gary]
[Jing Bing]
[Jun Xiang]
[Mian Cun]
[Simon]
[Stanwin]
[Tze Hao]
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Beauty, Freedom, Truth & Love.
Monday, March 21, 2005
At last, thy last blow have been brought down on me.... I hope tis gets wat u wan, God..... Hope tis will make u happy at the least.... Finally.... u took away wat i wanted the most.... Wat i needed the most.... And tat is her!
No matter how much i cry into the nite, no matter how much i beg u God, no matter how much i do to recover watever is lost.... u still took it away frm me... WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! why cant u let me love someone who i really wan to love, why? Is it wrong for me to fall in love and love someone who i wan to love? Is it wrong? TELL ME GOD! Now look at me... how pathetic i am, look at me... I never ask for much.... all i ever ask is to fall in love.... I dont care whoever looks down on me now.... i payed the full price... i payed with my fuckin heart.... To think tat lovin someone wif u entire heart was rite... coz no one deserved to loved half hearted.... Sp yup.. i payed the whole price... i payed it wif my fuckin heart!
Pain and sufferin are endless.... at home and in sch.... Is there a need to start everything when u noe tat it will all end in misery.... i pick up tat gift of love again and found myself all hurt by it again.... If tats wat u wan, God! then i hope it pleases u...Coz now it has tore my heart apart once again... i am so fuckin useless.... i am so fuckin stupid... i am so fuckin helpless.... And i am so damn fucked now! i hope you are happy wif it.... i am cursed... i can never fall in love... coz when i do.... everything i dream of havin will be taken away from me....So tis is wat i get for begging and tis is wat i get for askin... nothing but pure misery...! Tell me God, if i ask u to show her how miserable i am coz i wan to love her.... will u show me to her? Will u at least show her how much i really care and love...?
So i hope tat tis is wat u predicted and hope for, God.... I can never hide my emotions now... now tat smile of mine will be wiped away frm my face... And i will put on a false face....So Smile GOD!!!! Show me ur freakin smile and tat u're glad! ARGH!!!!!