Life Of My Own

- Perhaps the last -

2005-04-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

- Perhaps the last -

well... but now u would have seen the notice on the blog before clickin the OK button, this blog has currently come to a stop... Many would have ask me why i did it..... y i stop bloggin and all tat staff..... well... i guess i would tell every single one of them tat it was memories.... there are jus lots of memories tat i decided to stop it all...

Well.... the exams are over and so are the class chalet at costa sand east coast..... had such gd times wif me class mates while i was there.... BBQ the first nite, nite cyclin frm 2am to 6am in the mornin on the 2nd day early morning... well, then there are other fun activites, had very little slp while i was there.... spend the few nites cyclin and walkin around east coast.... my feet still kind of hurt though.... But still, it was a very fun chalet.....

MC seem to be kind of in a sorry state.... i see each of my fren losin the girl they love one by one, so much things have happen within our grp....

Thoughts of her still lingers around in my head... non the less...i still love her so much.... i really miss her alot.... but no matter how much i sae and even express myself in this blog of mine..... she still dosent care abt me.... perhaps there is no such thing called sincerity in this world... only beauty..... some people preach the things they do not practice.... there seems to be no such things called sincere love but instead its the the superficial love tat goes abt lookin at how people look... Anyway... no point sayin this.....

Memories of Jo. were found somewhere in my picture album... the pic wif her at the graduation nite.... and the other memories in sec sch.... bits and pieces of paper here and there..... there was one particular piece of paper which i have kept frm sec 1 to now...

To everyone.... tis is perhaps my last entry for my blog... perhaps i will come back some day to this blog to blog again, then again.... i might never return..... Thanx everyone for supportin me all the way... i thank you all.... i will still drop by the blog everyday to see my tagboard....

To Calida, stay happy now, i promise you tat someday i will come back to find you.... and by then i hope i can change ur views of me.... for now stay happy wif ur current situation.... I Love You always....

Tis is Ah KInG's World, My World....
First there was a beginning,
Now there is an end,
Both books of Genesis And Revelation
Are finally complete...

- For every beginning, there is an end... Ah KInG's World will now come to a stop, thanx for all the support... -

- Exams -

2005-03-28T20:14:00.000+08:00

- Exam -

Yar, as u might have guess with the above title of tis entry.... yup... exam is jus round the corner and it starts on the 5th of april.... here is my exam schedule:

Exam Schedule
CP5035 CPPB - 05/4
CP4089 ITM - 07/4
MS2126 EM1 - 12/4
CP4006 I&OC - 13/4

Beside tis... still got somethings to add into tis entry.... jus wan to also sae sorry to God, for being so harsh and angry... yes... i was really sad and angry when i found out somethings abt calida.... And i was kind of in the wrong to start being so worked up and starting sayin kind of mean stuff at God..... So jus wanna sae sorry abt it, God...

Perhaps YC was rite when he said i was hidin & scared of her... half rite.... yes, i am really scared of her and another reason was tat i cant bear to see her, i noe i have been like kind of angry or upset when i tell my frens tat i dont wan to see her in a very angry tone, but jus deep down, i hope for her to see me instead.... so yup... i guess i shld be scolded for tis also.... So many things have happen and i dont wan to give things up like tis, neither would i wan to give her up, call me stubborn or stupid or watever u wan to put it... i noe tis will somehow also come to no gd end, but if some pple can change the fate of somethings in their life, then i too hope for it....

Jim was also rite abt the fact tat i have really been stress tis few weeks and tat i seem rather sad over somethings. Guess he was rite after all.... i have been kind of stress and sad over the weeks..... i think he noes or do not noe abt it.... but shant talk so much on it either....

To Tze Hao, i doubt u will see my blog either.... but aniwae... sorry if i jus left the club like tat.... i noe tat in order for u not to have any problem in the club, i decided to leave....so sorry abt it, Tze Hao.... I hope u will understand it...

Manage to watch SpongeBob SquarePants the movie today wif YC & WC... the movie is really funny especially Patrick, the starfish.... But overall, had some fun today seein Zayana being sabo by her frens and yanti, they were jus celebratin her belated bdae by saboin her wif flour and many other gross and sticky stuff....

- I am willin to become the angel in tat fairytale u love, spread my out my arms, which will become my wings to protect you. -

20 Questions to a Better Relationship

2005-03-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

- 20 Questions to a Better Relationship -

eXpressive: 5/10
Practical: 6/10
Physical: 3/10
Giver: 8/10

You are a RPIG--Reserved Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Rock of Gibraltar.

You are loyal, kind, thoughtful and conscientious. You're a good person. You make everyone around you happier and better, even if you yourself are not at your happiest or best. You just care so much about your friends and loved ones that you can't help giving them everything of yourself. It can wear you out, but you'd never let on. ( This are true... )

You're successful, smart and fun to be with, but your self-esteem could use some boosting. You don't like conflict, and you don't like demanding things for yourself, so you can feel unappreciated. But then you wonder if you don't deserve to be appreciated. You do! ( True abt me... )

You have many small crushes, but it takes you ages to get to a serious stage with someone. You get so caught up second-guessing yourself and worrying if the other person really *likes* likes you that you never dare to make the first move. Generally you end up with another clever RPIG who knows one when s/he sees one. This adds up to one long courtship. Fortunately this also adds up to one long marriage. (The part of crushes.... not true... the rest of it... i guess its true)

You would never cheat. You would never hurt anyone's feelings. You are so sympathetic and give so many second chances that it takes a lo-o-ong time for anyone to get on your bad side.

Your only problem is you can be *too* thoughtful -- you can end up worrying and getting hung up over nothing.(True also)

You may be a boy scout. ( Not true for me... i will also never be a boy scout!!! )

Of the 213176 people who have taken this quiz, 6.9 % are this type.

Visit tis site to and try the survey.... 20 Qs. to a better relationship

- Hope ya happy -

2005-03-21T20:34:00.000+08:00

- Hope Ya Happy -

At last, thy last blow have been brought down on me.... I hope tis gets wat u wan, God..... Hope tis will make u happy at the least.... Finally.... u took away wat i wanted the most.... Wat i needed the most.... And tat is her!

No matter how much i cry into the nite, no matter how much i beg u God, no matter how much i do to recover watever is lost.... u still took it away frm me... WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! why cant u let me love someone who i really wan to love, why? Is it wrong for me to fall in love and love someone who i wan to love? Is it wrong? TELL ME GOD! Now look at me... how pathetic i am, look at me... I never ask for much.... all i ever ask is to fall in love.... I dont care whoever looks down on me now.... i payed the full price... i payed with my fuckin heart.... To think tat lovin someone wif u entire heart was rite... coz no one deserved to loved half hearted.... Sp yup.. i payed the whole price... i payed it wif my fuckin heart!

Pain and sufferin are endless.... at home and in sch.... Is there a need to start everything when u noe tat it will all end in misery.... i pick up tat gift of love again and found myself all hurt by it again.... If tats wat u wan, God! then i hope it pleases u...Coz now it has tore my heart apart once again... i am so fuckin useless.... i am so fuckin stupid... i am so fuckin helpless.... And i am so damn fucked now! i hope you are happy wif it.... i am cursed... i can never fall in love... coz when i do.... everything i dream of havin will be taken away from me....So tis is wat i get for begging and tis is wat i get for askin... nothing but pure misery...! Tell me God, if i ask u to show her how miserable i am coz i wan to love her.... will u show me to her? Will u at least show her how much i really care and love...?

So i hope tat tis is wat u predicted and hope for, God.... I can never hide my emotions now... now tat smile of mine will be wiped away frm my face... And i will put on a false face....So Smile GOD!!!! Show me ur freakin smile and tat u're glad! ARGH!!!!!

- Happy Birthday -

2005-03-19T07:46:00.000+08:00

- Happy Birthday -

This week have been really busy, submission of project, reports and many more.... But still glad to make it thru the week and now as the exams draw nearer, its time to get the spirit of studyin back again....

Yesterday was her birthday, i brought the present which took me one month to piece together for her.... Though she wanted to jus walk off like tat, i told her not to coz i really took the time and effort to get the gift for her, i didnt want her to throw away the gift either even though i told her tat if she didnt like the gift she can throw it away... i ask her if she appreciate the things i do for her... though she said yes, i was still not really sure abt it, did she sae it coz i was there, or did she meant it? i was like goin to ask her 4 qs, but i manage to ask her 2 onli.... My 3rd question, calida, if u know where my blog is, do u still wan to see me in cls club?

I hope she like my gift, but if she dont, well... i jus hope she is abit happy tat someone else like me is there to celebrate her birthday, i noe i am tat particular someone & somehow she treats me like an enemy... Still, Happy Belated 18th Birhtday to you again.... my love & angel....

- Bcoz i love you, my frens who help me to get near close to u, were all cursed -

- Hitch -

2005-03-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

- Hitch -

My frens told me to destress abt a week or so ago, so decided to go catch a movie 2dae... Read thru the life papers tis morning and found the movie i wanted to watch... "Hitch" Heard frm MC and Gary tat the movie was rather funny.... then i check for the timings for the movie.... I saw 11.20am... and decided to go catch it at tis time... So arrived there at abt 11am and bought the tickets.... then went off to the arcade and tried tis game my brother have been talking abt.... its called Maximum Tune.... the game was alrite.... sat there racin against computers.... i was playin story mode....

Anyway.. the movie was funny and it is good... would recommend u pple to go watch it if u haven watch it..... dont wanna described it too much, u pple shld go watch it... i give like 4 out of 5 stars... tats my personal ratin.... Anway.... u can watch the trailer also....

*Hitch Trailer - U need Quicktime in order for you to view the trailer.*

Had lots of fun yesterday wif MC, YC, my brother & me.... went to kovan to play CS after doin part of our idea business proposal..... Had so much fun jus playin tat and we couldnt stop laughin out when we were playin the game... Both YC & MC... always against each other... one Counter terrorist & the other terrorist.... so when one of them get killed by the other one, they would go over to the body, sprayed it wif paint or shoot at the dead body... So funny.... LOL! So played frm evening time till 8 plus like tat before MC had to go off to meet his girlfren.... and we left the place... Enjoyed myself.....

- Perserve hard enough, have faith in yourself, hope for it & u may get wat u want. -

童话 - 光良

2005-03-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

- Tong Hua - Guang Liang -

童话 - 光良
忘了有多久再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久我开始慌了是不是我又做错了什么
你哭著对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

你哭著对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

- Tough week -

2005-03-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

- Tough Week -

This week have been a really tough week for me... gotten sick on monday, then had serious coughs & sore throats thru out the entire week... then finally gave in.... couldnt take it anymore... needed to see a doctor.... Could have caught the flu frm someone on sch since monday... coz i started coughin & had sore throats when i went home on monday....

This week got lots of stuff to do... report to rush, got 2 test.. didnt go for ITM test 2dae... wasnt really tat well.... Anyway... manage to hand up my RWP report 2dae.. with thanx to YC & WC... but still the biggest thanks shld go to YC, coz 3/4 of the report comes frm him one...So Thanx YC.... Speakin abt which.... YC is very efficient with his work.. so far all the reports and homework assign to the class... i think he done all of them liao.... Some he even handed them up... WOW! where got like me... slack here and there... but still tis week kind of tired coz of tis sickness i got frm sch....

Then did IDEAS yesterday..... couldnt do much coz i was tired & couldnt think much either on wat to do for the business proposal.... YC did most of the work while i jus stared blankly into the screen, hopin to come up wif something for our grp proposal.... haiz... in the end also nothing.... If werent for YC around to do the work... i think most of my homework/project/report would have been gone case liao.... or if he wasnt there.... our IDEA project would still have not been done yet.... So thankful for him.... makin sure tat we all do our work....

Wonder if i can really recover frm tis cold soon.. Exams really near the corner now... its startin on the 5th of April.... better start formin study grps again? hope tat we all can study together... i better not slack already.. pick up ur spirits guys... let us all work hard together for the exam and promote on to the next stage....=]

- Sweeps me Away -

2005-03-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

- Sweeps Me Away -

Sweeps me away
the insatiable urge to see that smile. just once more over. and i know i'd be gone.

or maybe no.

the spark that was provoked in that very instance.

the very knowledge that our acquaintance, and more importantly our re-aquaintaince, will be decided, verdicted upon only by this unpredictable essence of time, makes keeping sane that little bit harder to do.

let me turn around and say hi.
tell me you'll never say goodbye

all i want to do. is to turn around. and see you there.

see you there.the very emotions that ran through and overwhelmed me now maim me. our fates intertwining in what potentially could be something really good. but i know. and you know. and everyone knows. whatever transpires next will be the next tragedy of epic proportions.

everytime, anyhow, something will happen. am i supposed to remain downcast? or believe in the law of averages?

to think i might not see those eyes
makes it so hard not to cry
and as we say our long goodbyes
i nearly do

please don't go.

away from those old tales of melancholy. of endless running away from the tarantulas and scorpions of the world. of heartbreaks and stories that never came true. yesterday night i dreamt of something new.

it's all about you.
[*Taken from Edward - http://cfc-ed.blogspot.com/*]

Tis fren of mine is really gd wif his english & also a very nice fren i got.. still remember those days in sec. sch...A really nice fellow...... and i found tis entry of his very nicely done... so was thinkin of sharin it wif u pple... Thanx ed... for lettin me use ur entry... =]

- To Anonymous -

2005-03-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

- To Anonymous -

To Anonymous, i wan to congratulate u on findin my blog and postin such a post on my chatter board.... there seems to be alot of things i wan to tell u abt but i guess i cant really squeeze watever i wan to tell you jus into my chatterbox, so tis entry of mine will jus be for u...

Perhaps you were lucky in love, perhaps you already have someone whom u loved or someone who is there to love you, for me, i am not that lucky.... You dont noe wat i have been thru and u claim that i am very pathetic.... i might seem very pathetic to you.... but i guess u would need to be in my shoes to fully understand the things i face in life... i dont care if the world look down on me bcoz i love her, i dont care even if her frens look down on me for lovin her... the only thing i noe is tat i love her for who she is, and tat she is very important to me.... And i dont expect her to like me now... feelings take time to develope and i noe tat she might not like me now for a whole lot of reasons, i dont blame her for tat.... i will have to wait.... even if it means for a long time...

I dont expect you to understand the whether i am very romantic or wat, but its jus tis characteristic tat runs in my blood.... Yar, i may or may not be romantic, i dont care.... i stand as who i am.... wat i am.... And if u think tat all tis patheticness & romanticness is makin u & ur frens digusted.. then there is only thing i got to sae... who ever loves you.... hope tat he/she does not be like me.... jus pray tat he/she isnt romantic at all.... jus pray tat he/she will not become so pathetic in lovin you....

There is a very strong reason i love her & dont expect you to understand it at all... yes, u might wan to laugh at me even if i told you abt it.... I have frens who are here to support me all the way and i am thankful for them, they are always there, even in the darkest time of my life.... And i bet tat even ur frens are there to support you on who u wan to love as well...

You can condemn me for watever i sae here.... but tis words are truly from the bottom of my heart.... i may not noe who u are... but there is sure one thing i wan u to noe..... i may be pathetic, but wat i am doin for her is frm the heart and tat i believe it to be the greatest things i ever done....

- Songs of Love -

2005-02-28T08:22:00.000+08:00

- Songs of Love -

Haven been home for the past few days, was away on CLS LTC ( Leadership Training Camp )....But before goin off for the camp, heard abt 3 songs on the radio tat speak of my heart at the moment... But.. i guess i will jus pick out the main part of the songs which i think means alot to me....

Everything I Own by Bread
You taught me how to love,
What its of, what its of.
You never said too much,
but still you showed the way,
and I knew from watching you.
Nobody else could ever know
the part of me that can't let go.

And I would give anything I own,
Give up my life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again.

If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough by Don Henley & Patty Smyth
I don't wanna lose you,
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have sombody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And I don't really matter
To anyone, anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

Sometimes songs like tis speak of the heart very well... this were 3 songs tat speak of my heart very well before the camp...And would u have guessed tat all 3 songs were played on the radio on the same day.... but all on different time....however the most freaky thing abt it was when i was thinkin her....the song started playin...

Anway camp was kind of fun, met lots of new people & also saw her thru out the camp, my rival was there. but i didnt do much abt it either.... was glad to see her.... was jus back frm camp yesterday & have slept for the past 12hrs or so....cant really remember much... Anyway.... her bdae will be comin soon, gotta do some shoppin soon, this gift i guess will be very special....

- I may be a fool in love, but i am that fool who loves you, with my entire heart & soul -

- Life's fuckin screwed -

2005-02-24T17:19:00.000+08:00

- Life's Fuckin Screwed -

Dont u ever wonder wat went wrong and y things ended up in the worst way it could ever be & tat u never ever thought of it....?My life is kind of fuckin screwed up now... the girl i wanted to love seems to be further and further away frm me... & my love rival is tryin ways to show tat he like Calida as well.... So wat did i ever do tis time to deserve such treatment...?! If i could jus undo these mistakes, i will & give anything jus to undo them....! God! is tis the way how i shld end again? To see me be ripped once again by the torment of love? I made the mistake to give Josephine up 4 years ago.... Now i dont wan to make another mistake to give Calida up.... I noe i was so wrong to have treated Josephine like tat... I noe tat i shldnt have show so much care & concern tat scared her.... But frm the bottom of my heart... all i ever wanted is to love tat particular person & tats y i wan to care for tat person.... Will calida & josephine noe tat the care & concern i have for both of them was because i love them? it was never meant to cause them any harm or wat.... But jus to care only....

Am i really cursed? Cursed not to love other people? God! u noe how impt she is to me... And how special she is to me.... Do u noe how i wish to jus fall asleep now and then never wake up frm it, coz the pain i am gettin is gettin worst & worst now.... i love her so much & it aches me so much to see her act in a way i never understood or seen before.... i miss those days wif her... i still remember those days when she was so sad... i would always be there to cheer her up... maybe talk to her on msn or even have a small prayer for her to ask god to cheer her up for me.... When she has done well for something or she is happy, i would also be there to congratulate her.... Now tat the tables have finally turned... will she ever noe how sad i am or how happy it would be like for me to talk wif her again? Will she be there tis time for me? Will she have a heart to care for me tis time.. coz i really need her alot tis time...

Zayana told me to have patience... but is patience good enough? Maybe she is rite? i do need patience....So many things to sae, so many thing i wan her to noe.... But there is one thing i noe & tat is i am always there for her... watever she is goin thru in life, good or bad, i am always there to see she take her every step & always there to pray for gd health & her safety....

- So Lost -

2005-02-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

- So lost -

Went for the charity carnival held by CLS today....Was there to help out in a stall.... Was kind of a excitin day though, jus returned frm Clementi there, was playin Lan before tat....So took my bath & i am here to blog wat has happen for the day, maybe tis entry will be a entry tat will be here for a very long time before i decide to blog again...

Some things are best not known for particular reason.... I dont noe... But now tat i have known it... its kind of really worryin & depressing for me to noe it... there is a third party between me & Calida...... i feel kind of so lost rite now.... perhaps i am the unlucky one in life? the one who wans to love yet he cant love? I dont noe... the other guy seems to have it all...looks, charm. & maybe a good heart.... whereas for me? All i have is only a heart.... A heart tat is willin to love... do i still stand a chance in anything in life? I love her like i love God.... i would give anything up jus to love her... but no matter how hard i try in life... i jus cant love the person i wan to love... can someone tell me y? all i ever hear is tat there is always somewhere better frm the person i love... to tell u the truth, if there was someone else whom is better then you.. i would have love tat person then you... Becoz i love you, tats y i am there for you, because i am there for you, i will forever be by ur side till the very end of time...

So God, my prayer to you... is there a chance for me to fall in love wif the person i really love? Will u answer me? Or do i have to wait for a long time before u give me my answer? By then, will there still be tat person? Will i still be able to love her? Coz sometimes i am really tired from lovin someone in life... coz when i really love, i love wif my whole heart jus like i love you, God.... It takes so much out of me every single time, and each time it takes a large part of me away.... i feel i am losin both her & myself.... Will there be angles to comfort me now? Or will misery engulf me whole? i am lost once again, i am seekin the way out to find her again.... Will u show me the way to find Calida, the girl i love so dearly? Answer me God...... Pls! I never had the chance to love someone who i really wan to love...I always believe in love, and tat every person whom u love must be loved wif ur whole heart....

- I never knewn tat my love story could get as worst as tis, perhaps i am the unlucky one in life, the one who wans to love yet he cant love -

- Industrial Visit -

2005-02-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

- Industrial Visit -

Woke up at 6am tis morning, found out tat i forgot to charge my Hp the nite before, so borrowed my mum's hp to use for the day... YC also bought his new Hp already.. Looks really nice to me... Wonder if the functions are also gd? LOL.. Anyway... if i do wan to change Hp, then i gotta wait for the next 1 to 2 years like tat before my plan ends & i go change another hp...

Ms Ong, our maths tutorial teacher was very nice, gave us each a Ang pow wif a Chocolate gold coin in it.. So had mathcad pract, then followed by Maths tutorial....Then had Mrs Tham CPPB lecture...Was kind of feelin slpy though, was noddin my head every now and then when hearin her talk...its not because she is borin or wat... i was like kind of tired tis few days...Dont noe y....So yar, went out of class halfway to buy a cup of coffee to drink.... So class ended at 12pm, got another 3 hrs to spare before reportin for industrial visit... Went to play Badminton & Table Tennis wif half of the class... Half of the class was like at the sports hall there...LOL... So played till 3pm like tat then report to the Admission Block to wait to board the bus to go to the Serching Plough, the medicine/drug industry....

Poor edmund, was kind of bullied by YC, who was knockin his helemt all the time wif a pen... Then while we were waitin to go over to another plant tat time... we were sittin outside, the ground there had some granites stones... YC took one and threw it at Edmund helemt... When it hit edmund helmet... the lot of us guys who were there were laughin away... before u noe it, each were pickin up stones & started throwin at each other helmet.... The whole thing was kind of long, most of the time was jus standin, listenin to the tour guides & walkin abt.... So left the place at around 6pm, coz our group was kind of the last grp to reach back the guard house.. Our class were split into 2 grps intially before leavin to each plant...

So had dinner wif Gary, Mc & YC @ FC5 KFC, before goin home.... now back home, kind of tired, dont intend to do some work on the RWP report, guess will wake up early 2molo jus to do abit.... My coms kind of sucky... Its infected wif a virus....i guess its a matter of time before it crashes....Lucky, manage to back up most of the files.... inculdin my sch work...Guess tis comin few weeks got lots of work to do... got my gems pics to take, coz submission date is first week of march.. if dont submit, will fail......(-.-!) Dont wan to repeat tis or any other modules i have.... Then exams seems to be also round the corner... better study now or will die...!

- It might seem hard to explain why somethings happen in such a way.. but it jus does, somethings dont need an explanation, jus like Love... -

- My Story -

2005-02-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

- My story -

Well... my story will still continue frm here.... but how it is like, will be a very different thing.... Yar, so most of the girls in my class are kind of happy wif the gifts i have for them... Each of them got a rose & a testube filled wif beads & water as a gift for Valentine Day... i think tis day shld be shared wif all... Beside a day of love, its also the day of frenship...

Amanda was also very nice, gave everyone of us chocolate to eat... Guess i will be increasin in size also after eatin it... Eat too much stuff durin the Chinese New Year.. Guess better be goin for exercise soon... Yar, Yanti & zayana hug me.... LOL.. they were kind of happy when they recieve both the flowers & test tube as well.... Its always enjoyable to see other people smile & be happy.... Guess when i can really be happy is the time i joke, laugh & smile wif everyone... The only thing i have lefy is Weili's gift, she didnt come 2dae to sch.. guess i will be givin her 2molo...

So wat did i do wif the special gift tat i had, i gave it to Calida... I never had a feelin like tis before, the feelin of losin someone so soon... Coz i realised tat if i didnt give her the sunflower & the test tube 2dae, i dont noe when will i ever have the chance....she went off halfway durin IDEAS, i was worried tat i wont see her again in class.... So i took the flower & the gift & ran all the way to the child care centre where she was goin... Issac was kind of shocked to see me outside the child care centre...i walk up to her and ask her if i could talk to her... i had no fear, i was my usual self before her, so wantin to talk to her.... though she was kind of unwilling to talk to me... but it was only after issac & jasmine told her to talk wif me for awhile... i thank them for tat... i was kind of wrong in judgin them...thanx for them tis time....

Yes.. i finally understood the reason why she treated like tat... though she sae tat she was to blame... i think tis time the fault is mine... wat i did to the girl i like in secondary sch has happen again... too much care & concern causes the person to be afraid... So frm the bottom of my heart, Calida, I am truly sorry tat i had treated u like tat...she told me tat there are better girls out there for me too... but i told her tat i have hear tis too many times & even told her tat its not as simple as u wan tat person to forget the other person he really love/like.... i told her tat i wanted to still be her fren, though she told me the same things i heard long time ago, no feelins & stuff, but the heart is still there, its hard to change it no matter wat..... She accepted the gift and the sunflower, i am kind of glad... Thank you God....!

So i told her to stop ignorin me after i pass her the gift & also the flower, i walk off in the other direction, back to class... she wen off wif Issac, Jasmine, Cleon & Jim to the library.... Now as a fren, i can only care to a certain extent, silently... but no matter how much the things have change in life, she is always tat someone special in my heart.... No doubt abt it....And i will always show my care for her.... I still love her....alot... Givin up will not be an option i have...i will continue to love her as much as i can.....So my story between me & her... i guess it will carry on.... but to where, i dont noe.. but i do hope for it to turn out the way i wish/wan it to be....

* Happy Valentine Day to all again! =] *

- Quiz -

2005-02-14T09:11:00.000+08:00

- Quiz -

I was kind of bored , so went over to amanda's blog to see wats there to do.. i found tis quiz to do...

What's Your Trademark Tune?
Terry, your trademark tune is Black Eyed Peas' "Where is the Love"

Hey, sweet thing. There's nothing not thoughtful and goodhearted about you. In fact, you don't need to ask where the love is, because you are the love. A rare breed, you often put others' needs above your own, and you'd go the extra mile for friends and strangers alike.

It's important to you that you make a difference in the world — one action and one day at a time. Helping people, regardless of the career you choose, will probably be at the top of your to-do list. And there's nothing more loving than that.

Guess tats all....

- Gifts & Flowers -

2005-02-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

- Gifts & Flowers -

haha.... at last.. finally done wif my gift for Valentine Day... took me quite some work though... Got all the flowers & stuff done... All i need to do is pack them properly..And i can give it 2molo....LOL! Jus wan to wish everyone a "Happy Valentines Day!!"

*Endless Love - Tis is the name of tis bouquet*

Found tis bulletin at frenster... Its quite nice... a person wifout looks but a very nice & lovin heart gets the girl he loved....:

He was not handsome... But he had feelings... One day, he felt in love with a woman... A woman he really had a crush on... But he realized that he was not handsome... So he kept it deep inside his heart...

He was not handsome... Knowing this, he still approached the girl he admired... Upon approaching her, he asked her name and asked for her number... They came into contact with each other... The guy was happy and he felt nice talking to the lady...

He was not handsome... He had to remember this all the time... He knew he couldnt say out his wish to the lady... However, one day, he took up the strength to call that lady... When hewas about to pick up the reciever, the phone rang.. It was her... His crush.... His lady of his dreams... She asked him out on that night.. There was no reason for him to say, "NO..." That night, they went to a restaurant for dinner..

He was not handsome... This was proven to him at that night... When the lady told him that she had a crush on a guy... He was crushed into pieces by his own crush... but he didnt say a word.. He knew it.. He was not handsome...

He was not handsome... and he knew he wont get his girl of his dream... So he intended to help the lady out... He took the lady to the guy whom she had a crush on... After a week, he saw the lady dating with the guy... He knew that there is no more hope for him...

He was not handsome... and this made him loose his love... He just kept his feelings deep inside his heart... But it was okay for him... as his love was happy with the guy she loved..

He was not handsome.. but maybe his powerful love brought his lady back to him... One day, the lady came all the way crying to him..She said to him that she lost her virginity and the guy dumped him... She was all in tears and didnt know where to go...

He was not handsome... but he loved her... He wiped the tears off the lady and gave a warm hug... The lady felt the warm feel gush through her nerves and touch her heart deep inside... She realized that this is her true love... He was not handsome... but he found his love finally... and he was happy...

*At the end of tis bulletin, someone posted tis along wif it.... its says:*
" P/s: looks are not really the most important thing in love..Consider the feelings of the ppl around you..You might just find that true love of yours..He may not be handsome..but he might love you more than anyone could ever love you.. and that is greater than some handsome idiots who doesn't love u... "

So wat will be my story like 2molo? will she be glad tat there is someone who loves her or will she jus get mad coz there is tat particular someone there to love her... For me.. i am glad tat i have loved her... i am truly blessed tat i was able to talk to her back then... And till now, the time i first met her & all the other wonderful meomeries still lives on in my mind & my heart.... So when someone questions me abt love, how much i would give to fall in love & to love? My answer to them will be, "Anything & everything jus to love tat particular someone...." So to tat particular girl in my heart, Calida Wan, I Love You more then anything in tis world.....
Tis words are truly frm the bottom of my heart...

- Chu San -

2005-02-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

- Chu San -

Haha...! Went to some of the lecturers' house today to "bai nian".... Anyway, invited all those who are goin to the teacher's house to "bai nian" to come my house to meet, at the same time, enjoy themselves while they are here... So the plan was to first travel to Mrs Ser house then to Mr Ting, followed by Dr Voon then lastly Mrs Leong.... At first meet Mrs Ser at 11.30am, all of them gathered at my place except MC, who was still on his way to my place.... He got no Hp(Forgot to pay bill), so kind of hard to contact him.... So had to send the rest of the guys, Wilson, Jim, Clarence, Chee Kwan, Yi Cheng & Thomas off to Mrs Ser's house first...

Had to wait for MC coz he was confirm comin to my place.... So me & Amanda waited for him before we took a Taxi down to Mrs Ser house... She lived at East Coast Rd there... Her house looks really nice... The we go there and sit around, play cards & chatted wif Mr ser before leavin her place to Mr Ting house @ Dover there.... Me, YC, MC & Chee Kwan took the taxi again tis time, Mrs Ser offered to drive the rest to Mr Ting house... So nice of her.... Saw Mr Ting house, Though looks kind of small... but his house very nice, looks cosy & has a very nice style & touch.... When enter the front door, can see a small pond.... Sat around his house, Mr Ting played Big2 wif us... He won the first round!!! Wha Lao, Mr Ting is really gd at the game... But we had to visit Dr Voon @ Hill View Heights Condo

So we left Mr Ting house & immediately went over to Dr Voon house, he was happy to see us & welcomed us into his house, we sat down & chatted wif Dr Voon, then we started playin cards again... Ritual cards playin at every teacher house...LOL! This time, Dr Voon dont noe how to play Big2, so we played Blackjack together as a group.... Dr Voon's son, helped him, Father & son pair, told him if they needed to take an extra card... We had so much fun & laughter while playin.... After our stayed at Dr Voon's place, We had to visit one last teacher, Mrs Leong.... Amanda had to leave early to visit her fren back @ Serangoon... So left all of us guys who went over to Mrs Leong's place.... But we stop over at Clementi Hawker Centre to have our lunch before goin over... Mrs Leong told us to wait outside the gate of Clementi ITE, she wanted to drive us into her house... WOW! Can u believe it, she really did drive us into her house & it took her 2 trips to get the whole grp of us to her place...

Mrs Leong looks nice & the place she stay is very windy & quiet.... Next time got chance, also buy a house there... LOL! We sat at her place, got lots of jokes, chatted alot & even chio Edmund to come down to Mrs Leong house... At first he didnt wan to come down, but after Mrs Leong talk to him.... He came down... Mrs Leong took us to walk around her house there nearby before edmund came.... Then close to 6pm, all of us decided to go off & would u believe me if i told u tat she offered to drive us out to the bustop & MRT station.... Believe me now... She did...! LOL! Very nice of her rite?!

Anyway, was kind of glad tat we have such nice teachers like Mrs Ser, Mr Ting, Dr Voon & Mrs Leong.... And it is really wonderful to go visit them durin NewYear... LOL... So yar.. after visitn them, me, YC & Thomas decided to go watch the movie Constantine @ PS... Look for my previous post abt the movie..

- Constantine -

2005-02-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

- Constantine -

Went watchin movie Wif Thomas & YC today.... Tis is really nice movie... I recommend it to you people, go watch it.... Its really nice!

Constantine:
Constantine tells the story of irreverent supernatural detective John Constantine (Keanu Reeves), who has literally been to hell and back. When Constantine teams up with skeptical policewoman Angela Dodson (Rachel Weisz) to solve the mysterious suicide of her twin sister (also played by Weisz), their investigation takes them through the world of demons and angels that exists just beneath the landscape of contemporary Los Angeles. Caught in a catastrophic series of otherworldly events, the two become inextricably involved and seek to find their own peace at whatever cost.

* Click on the Pic to get to the Movie Website*

Trailer - U need Quicktime to view tis trailer

Go watch it... i give 4 stars out of 5 for tis movie, tis is my personal ratin.... Its nice... Lots of action & abit of a thriller.... A wager between Heaven & Hell, a movie abt Angels & Demons & also abit on Christainity....

- Chu Yi -

2005-02-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

- Chu yi -

Kind of tired... One whole day wif lots of relative.. but i guess its kind of fun, seein all of them like this only once every year... I mean in a way tat u get to see all ur relatives get together at ur house & then u interact wif them... Woke up at 7am tis morning, 跟 my parents 拜年 had to go over to my uncle house to pick up my grandma over to our house...

Went over to my uncle house wif both my parents & brother, then took the oranges & then 跟 my uncle 拜年, after tat, took my grandma back home.... by then it was 10am in the morning.... Went back home for an hour before the guest & relatives statred to pour into our house... I had to prepare so many drinks & bring it out to the living room to let them drink... One of my relatives told my mum tat i was very nice & helpful, but my mum told them tat i only do tis once a year only... Other then tis CNY period, i dont even help her at all.... (-.-!) Where got? i got help my mum all the time at home... LOL... alrite... Maybe not all the time...

So more & more guest kept on comin in till around 4pm in the afternoon where my grandma left the house to go back to my uncle's place... was kind of tired & maybe slpy.. coz i was drinkin cocktail at the back of the house, yup... i made the cocktail myself...& yes... it does contain alcohol, I was mixing orange squah syrup, 7up & Vodka Absoulte together.... However durin tat afternoon, i suddenly thought of calida... i was wonderin how her visitin is like so far... i did sent her a Chinese new year greetin the nite before....But as usual, no reply or no back greetings at all...Nvm.. i am fine wif tat, but i was kind of really missin her alot...Was thinkin of her all the time.... Anyway, i had to go to my "Gu ma" house, my dad wanted to go see & 跟 my Gu Ma 拜年, she is my father's sister.... But i was kind of slpy & i fell asleep on the car on our way...My mum woke me up when we arrived at my Gu Ma's place... Sat around their house for an hour or so.... before leavin their place, went home for dinner...

Today's collection is kind of good, got lots of money... hehe~ now can get some things i wan after new year... But must be thrifty.... must spend wisely... LOL... guess i will be slpin soon, got to prepare for 2molo guest & relatives, maybe i will go some other place visitin, haven visit my mother side relatives....

- Missin her like never before. A stronger feelin, so strong tat I can't explain. -

- Gifts -

2005-02-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

- Gifts -

At last, manage to get the things for Valentine day..... guess i will have to start workin on it soon... so as the get ready the gifts on monday.... So much work to do.. but i guess its gonna be one of the best Valentine day i am gonna have? Spend close to $100 already... But then i think abt it... i think it is worth it.... =D

Ok... i did do some testin already... & the gift has a prob.... guess gotta come up wif a solution soon.... anyway.. i went for shoppin for the gifts 2dae wif YC & MC.... so yar.. Only YC & me got the stuff we need... Poor MC, wanted to do some cup wif he & his girlfren photo on it....but was kind of late in givin in his photo.... Coz if he gave 2dae.. we had to wait till next week before we can the cups... by then... it will be past Valentine day.... So we didnt do it... Poor MC, had to go around other places to find his gift.. As for me, i had to go home for dinner... Catch a ride frm my dad.... Coz i was near his office....

2molo i will be goin back to Sec sch to see my teachers, guess some or most of them have already left the sch.... I am not sure y but there are still some teachers who are still there... i hope to see my form teacher.... Mr Lee Hang Hwa... & also my D&T teacher Mr Lee Boon Siang... This 2 are my favourite teacher..... LOL... Wonder if they have change in apperance anot? Then i also heard tat there is a new principal... Heard tat tis principal is very "niao", any thing also wan to say... Haiz... 2molo go sch will see liao.... Any way.. i found another song called Glory of Love by North...

Glory of love - North
Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things i want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes i just forget
Say things i might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

You'll keep me standing tall
You'll help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time i will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love

Before i go... Jus wanna wish all my frens & love ones a Happy Chinese New Year, may you all have a properous year & tat all ur wishes come true....
<*~ HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! ~*>

- A Cut -

2005-02-05T21:38:00.001+08:00

- A Cut -

Started the day wif a game of basketball wif my neighbour & brother early in the morning.... Played for abt for 2 hrs before goin off to the newly open prata shop near my house to have breakfast.... Then we went off to the Club near our house to chit chat.... We bought some drinks and sat down & talk abt alot of things before headin back home...

Dad came back home at abt 4pm today, brought back alot of things... but wat pleases me most was the Vodka Absolute bottle he brought back home jus for me.... I told him to get for me before he left singapore for his business trip.... LOL! So guys next time u come over my place durin the new year, do ask for a drink... Hmmm.. i think i am gettin more & more alcohol addicted... Better not... if not will be no good for my body....

Went for a haircut also 2dae.. Hair kind of thick, so went for a cut..... Came back home to take a bath, cut myself near my lip while shaving..... Never happen before, must be something bad has or is goin to happen, i wonder wat it is... Went for dinner wif my family at some coffee shop at Bishan.... Then bought cartons of Soft drinks frm the NTUC near my home.... 2nite got one movie by Stephen Chow, must watch.... LOL.. i love his movies....Damn funny...

I wonder how she is now.... Hows her day been.. But i cant ask her.. i am afraid tat i will piss her off again.. i dont noe... maybe i have been bad mouth by some people? So tats y i am in tis sorry state? i am really missin her alot now.. and each time i think of her... my heart seems to ache alot.... so many things have happen & most of it are unhappy memories.... i can forget abt all the other things she have done to me... but i cannot or have not understand y she acted so differently tis very time....Maybe i will try msgin her tis comin Chinese New Year week? i hope to clear things up wif her soon.... i am truly, madly deeply in love wif her....

- She -

2005-02-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

- She -

At last... manage to meet the Sports comm people of the CLS Club.... And yes, i am part of the family now... there are some up-comin events like farewell party for the seniors & LTC(Leadership trainin camp) to attend in preparation for the upcomin FO Camp....I am intendin to join tis few events... wif my fren Tze hao... LOL... hope i will enjoy myself mixin around wif the sports comm people and frm there to other comm people as well.. i do hope to interact wif Calida somehow within the club.....

Now let me tell u pple how special Calida is to me.... She is the one who showed me wat love is, she is the one who rekindled my passion to love.... Jus when i gave up love after the 4 years incident in secondary sch....The second girl who is able to make me so emotional.... she has become such a large part of my life.... I treasure her alot no matter wat....

Still hangin around here.... But very tired coz i reach back home like an hour plus ago... Back frm sch....And YES... i was in sch the entire time.... Though i at least did some study on my microbio, which i still have a test 2molo... its still not enough, guess i have to read up more and do the tutorial again to get better understandin... Before i go now.. pray for a fresh mind 2molo & tat the passion to study come back soon... & also the strenght to continue lovin her.. & also the ability to interact wif alot of people in the CLS club & be frens wif them... i dont hope to have any enemies.... hope i can be frens wif issac, jasmine & her plus their grp of frens....

- Cryin -

2005-01-31T21:02:00.000+08:00

- Cryin -

I am really freak out by the recent nightmares i have at nite tis whole week, i dont noe abt it....i keep seein very weird dreams.... then i see her in so much torement, i myself, very scared and i will jus suddenly wake up in the middle of the nite.... I dont noe wat to do.... i am very scared.... i miss her so much....! i haven been talkin to her for so long.... I cant help it sometimes tat i find myself very emotional... as many of u would have guessed, i do have some moments at nite tat i cry....i really miss u alot... i sae tis truly frm the bottom of my heart....

当你 - 王心凌
如果有一天我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见

当你的眼睛眯著笑
当你喝可乐当你吵
我想对你好你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼　
当你说夜深你睡不著
我想对你说　却害怕都说错　
好喜欢你　知不知道

如果有一天　梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远　
你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天　我们都发觉
原来什么都可以　
我们是否还会停留在这里

也许空虚让我想得太多　
也许应该回到被窝
梦里会相遇　就毫不犹豫　
大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯著笑　
当你喝可乐当你吵
我想对你好　你从来不知道　
想你想你　也能成为嗜好
啦～　啦～
我想对你说　却害怕都说错　
好喜欢你　知不知道
啦～　啦～

Wan tis song? come and get it frm me...

- Blocked -

2005-01-28T10:00:00.000+08:00

- Blocked -

Today dont have to wake up so early..... Coz i dont have practical tis morning.... So yar.. Could slp kind of late.... But i had some weird nightmare of her.... In a sense tat i saw her cryin or sad like tat....i see also kind of scared... Woke up abt 6am in the morning.... couldnt fall back to slp... So i walk around in the house, used my com for awhile before goin back to slp.... jus woke up...

Amanda send me tis song, called Dive by Steven Curtis Chapman, its a really nice song... Lol... u pple wan it... i send it to you....jus msg me on msn... YC & MC came to chomps last nite again... Had Hokkien Mee & a glass of sugar cane, standard.... Both YC & MC like the hokkien mee... i always saes tat.....

Guess, she blocked me, maybe could be the recent incident, even tat time i try askin her out, maybe she misunderstood tat, all i wanted to do was to ask her out for jus 20mins and have a drink wif me on my birthday, jus wanted tat someone special to spend my birthday wif me even its for awhile...

Gotta go get ready soon, wan to play some pool before goin sch, also not to forget, have lunch wif my mum....i will also be skippin Gems class 2dae....No photo to show Mr Andrew.... Also dont feel like goin 2dae....oh well... Will be in sch for Collin Tan lesson.... frm 3pm to 5pm... After sch... see if i wan to go any other place or wat.... Guess wont come home so soon....

- The Beautiful Girl -

2005-01-25T09:16:00.000+08:00

- The Beautiful Girl -

i found tis on frenster, thought tat it was rather intrestin, so might as well shared it, but for those of you who are connected wif me on frenster, u can see it there.....

The Beautiful Girl
by Anonymous

She was not beautiful
Nothing about her was extraordinary
Nothing about her made her stand out in a crowd.
She grew up in a family of six and being the eldest she learned responsibility at an early age.

As she grew stronger and brighter, she instilled a sort of light and cheer to whomever she met.
She was not beautiful, but she made others feel better about themselves.
She meets a rebel boy who thinks he is all man befriending him, she teaches him.
She teaches him how to read and a little boost, the ' man' needed to go to college,

They become fast friends and she fell fast in love with her rugged handsome student.
The ' man' then finds himself in love with a girl
A girl who was so beautiful
Her hair was a hallow of light around her
Her eyes the bluest blue of the ocean.

' Like an angel' he tells his tutor
' like a beautiful angel.'
The girl swallows a lump at her throat

She was not beautiful
She did not posses the heart of the one he loved, but she did not care.
As long as he was happy, she would be happy, or so she tried to.

She helped write the most beautiful letters to his angel
All the time visioning it was she herself recieving those very letters.
And so the girl helped him choose the right clothes, say the right words, and buy the right gifts for his angel.
His angel brought him much joy and much pain to the girl who cried behind her smiles.
But that never stopped her from giving more than she will ever receive.

Then one day, all of h--- broke loose
The angel he loved left him for another man
A richer more successful man
The boy was stunned
He was so hurt, he did not speak for days
The girl went to him
He cried on her shoulder and she cried with him.
He was hurt and she was too.

Time went by and so wounds heal
The boy realizes something about his friend/tutor
Something he never realized before
How her laughter sounded heavenly and how her smiles brightened up the darkest days, or how simply beautiful she looked to him!

Beautiful.
This plain, simple girl was beautiful to him
And he began to fall.
Fall so in love with this beautiful girl
On one day, he picked up all his courage to see her
He walked to her house, nervous, and fidgeting,
Running his thoughts over and over his head.

He was going to tell her how beautiful she was to him
He was going to tell her how wonderfully in love he was with her.
He knocked. No one was home.
The next day, he found out that the beautiful girl he fell in love with had a brain tumor that put her into a coma.
The doctors were grim and the family decided to let her go.

One final time he got to see her
He held her hand
He stroked her hair and he cried for this beautiful girl.
He cried, but it was too late.
The beautiful girl was buried and the heavens broke.
Out a beautiful spring shower, a cry for their loss.
She was the most beautiful girl in the world and she had taught the rebel boy-man to love and what it is to be loved.
She was the most beautiful girl in the world.

Look around. Isn't there a lot of plain faces?Take a good look. A real good look, or you might just miss out that beautiful person. Forever.

- Shall we dance? -

2005-01-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

- Shall We Dance? -

Went to church 2dae.. didn't stayed in church for long.... Didn't have the heart to worship God... i was thinkin if i don't have the heart to worship God at all, i might as well not worship him at all.... Coz i will be lettin God down instead... To worship God not wif my whole heart is very bad... Still kind of feelin down frm everything tat is happenin... So i left church... went off to Serangoon Garden Country Club to sit around... But while i was there, i manage to flip thru the Life paper and saw the movie, " Shall We Dance? ".... Found tis movie title rather intrestin, so i decided to go watch it....

I left the club at abt 10am, the movie was to be screened at 11.10am @ Plaza Singapura, Took the bus 317 then NEL, manage to reach the place at abt 10.47am, so quickly wen up to buy the tickets... Was jus in time... Had another 10 mins to spare before goin in.... So i wen to buy the popcorn and drink.... Then wen in to watch the movie...

Tis movie is really nice, i mean personally i think tis movie is nice for me, but not sure abt u pple, but i do recommend u pple go watch it... Its still up to u pple to go watch it... After movie watchin, went to look for Gary & Sabrina, spend the afternoon wif the both of them, includin MC who came last mintue to meet us...

*Click on the pic to see Movie summary*

Movie Trailer - U might need Quicktime player to view the trailer.

I think Calida might like to watch tis movie... Coz she likes dancin... & tis movie has quite alot of dancin, though mostly thru out the entire movie the only type of dance featured is ballroom dancin.... In this movie, there is a song tat i like very much, i am still tryin to get it, its called Book of Love by Peter Gabriel... nice song.... Once i get the song, if u pple wan to hear it, i will send it to u all.....Guess maybe 2molo i will be doin something crazy... i think its best for me....

- Who cares? -

2005-01-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

- Who Cares? -

Again... it happenin again...Tis time i think i am goin to go thru another of tis cold war again... i never understood why... i guess tat i am down on my luck again... jus when things were gettin better for me and her.... Now... all seems gloomy... I wonder when tis will be over.... I am really really lost now...

Tis sentence comes from a song, Love will never lie by Micheal Learns To Rock,
"Someone will always hear you,
Care about you when you cry.
But no one can hear my heart is breaking as I say goodbye."
Guess tis is true to me... There is always someone, even me who will care abt her..... But no one is here to hear tat my heart is breaking whenever i think of u.....

Here is a song... i found it very meaningful:
爱，很简单 By Tao Ze

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔～
I LOVE YOU 无法不爱著你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你
不可能更快乐只要能在一起做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停用最真诚的心让爱变的简单
I LOVE YOU 我一直在这里一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU(yes I do)
永远都不放弃这爱的权利
如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No 请贴著我的心倾听
听我说著爱你(yes I do)我爱你

If u wan tis song, come find me, i will send it to you.... Jus msg me on Msn.

- Seriously missing her -

2005-01-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

- Seriously Missing Her -

She haven been online for the past week or so already... And i am really missing her alot... i wan to msg her.... But then again.. i sometimes get no replys back frm her.... Its so sad yet fustratin.... Msgin the person u wan to love to find out how their day was... u end up gettin nothing back at all... But anyway.... i am really, really very sad now... Coz i really missing her alot.....

Anyway.. guess tats all i gotta write for 2dae's entry... i was kind of bored.. did a Quiz for u pple to do... So go ahead and do it... i would like to find out abt how much u guys noe abt me....

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

- A Year Older -

2005-01-16T21:52:00.000+08:00

- A Year Older -

Kind of tired tis fews days... have been goin out for dinner & tonite had my Bdae cake cut.... Yup... 2molo i will be turnin 18 at last... At last... the age to do many things tat i couldn't have done when i was still younger... A year always seems to pass us by so quickly jus like a blink of an eye.... Anyway.. my family celebrated my Bdae but havin dinner on Saturday & cuttin my Bdae cake 2nite....So here the pics of my dinner tat nite... had it at a coffee Shop at AMK, the food was great.....:

*The Dinner*

*My Dad & Mum*

*My Brother smilin away*

Went off frm church at around 11am plus like tat, at first wanted to go there to see if can happen to see her at Raffles City... guess can't be tat really lucky to see her.... anyway.. walk around Raffles City for awhile, bought a Cross key chain & a heart pandent... I found tis heart to be rather beautiful... Frosted & wif a small diamond in the middle of the heart....Since cant get to see her... decided to head down to Pool Academy at Bugis there..... Played pool for like 2 hrs like tat, decided to head down to town to find my brother... But half way... Saw Gary & Sabrina eatin at KFC, so wen over to sae hi to them.... At first Gary saw me... Then i hide behind Sabrina... then slowly move my head forward.. till she saw me & she shouted.... So was wif them, walkin abt Bugis Street & Parco Bugis itself... Called my brother to come down to bugis to meet me...

He told me he needed to get some Hp thing for his hp... so wen down wif him to Harbour Front to see... he got his stuff there... then i and him sat at the Mrt Station stairway... Eatin & sharin Twister Fries & a Ice Lemon tea Drink frm Mac.... After tat, took the NEL all the way back to Serangoon & took a Taxi home.... Coz my brother says he very tired.. can't walk & take bus anymore.... On my way home... My brother gave me my present... It was the cap i told him i like at Heeren...:

*Thanks Bin.. For the present u bought for me*

Guess maybe i wont be able to get her out 2molo... i msg her like half an hour ago, askin her how was her day... Till now haven even reply me... I now thinkin wat i might be in her life... jus a someone/stuff who can only be of used at a certain time... Other then tat, jus throw aside till really need to use it again.... Am i tat? Really sad.... My heart seems to grow weaker & weaker each day... Maybe soon... there will be a time tat it will stop beatin.. And will everything come to an end at last? Will there be a Happy or Sad Endin? Or would i end up lifeless...? Only time will really tell....

- My Prayer -

2005-01-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

- My Prayer -

Maybe i do have nothing better to do.... But then again.. tis shall be a very special entry tat i am goin to publish... So tis entry shall be my prayer for all my brothers in sch... I am gald tat i have known u.... And i am glad tat u have been by my side...

For MC, Gary & WC... i am glad tat you have found the girls of ur heart.... i am thankful tat u have someone to love.... And as much as i do realise, i believe tat each one and every single one of them are also very thankful tat you all are the ones who they love.... Thank you guys for being by my side when i am feelin down.... For the girls, Low yun, Sabrina & Shu Ling... i am grateful for each & every single one of you who love my brothers.... Love them as much as they love you in life & be very thankful tat they are always there for you.... likewise for them...

For YC & Jun Yuan da ge.... i pray for u to find the girl u like, whoever they maybe... i am very sure tat they are very lucky to have u.... i am very thankful for YC & Jun Yuan Da Ge to share ur wisdom of girls wif me... i am also very thankful for u guys who are always there for me.... i pray for YC, tat Jia Hui will someday noe of ur love for her & tat u & her can be together....Nothin is impossible in this world... Have Faith & Hope in the things u do for them & then will Love really come & its sweetness be pour out upon u...

Last but not least... for Teck Ming, Rong Xi or Calida, all in all are the same one person... I am very grateful in life tat i have known u...it has been a real blessin..... My greatest possesion is not all the things i have in life... but instead its the blessin i recieve when i met u the very first time.... I pray for you to noe of the love tat i have for you.... at the same time, i pray for you to be always happy in life... Though i may worry abt you almost all of the time, of the things tat i may have done to make u angry, dislike me, & many more....even for the times when u are sick, not in class for lesson, i pray tat u noe tat i do really care for you....Sometimes, i feel very heartbroken & sad when i dont talk to u for days when u are not online.... even for the times u seem to ignore me.... But still, i carry on lovin u even though of the torement i go thru in life... Dun treat others like tat way u treat me in life, they dont deserve such sad treatment..... i believe u to be the nice girl who i first met, so prove it to me & my frens... Lastly, i pray for gd health for u likewise for all my brothers....

As for myself, i pray tat watever bad things tat i have done unto u all, my brothers & even her may be forgiven....i pray also for strength to continue lovin her... i pray tat i myself will always be there for her & even for everyone...

- The Magic of Love -

2005-01-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

- The Magic Of Love -

Bought tis scroll like thing at Heeren, Bloomington greeting Shop, the title of the scroll is, " The Magic of Love" & the thing goes something like tis:

The Magic of Love

Love is not judgemental,
Love is lending a hand to anyone in need

Love is not painful,
Love is knowing the sacrifices are well worth it

Love is not biased,
Love is recognizing someone's pain
and comforting them

Love is not difficult,
Love is openingg your heart to thouse who want to give

Love is not selfish,
Love is putin another's heart above your own

Love is not blind,
Love is being able to look in the mirror
and know you are someone special

Love is not complex,
Love is a sincere smile

Love is not distant,
Love is a heartfelt hug

Love is the one true gift we have to share with
everyone, anywhere, in an unlimited supply

And today,
I wanted you to know how much I Love You!

I like buyin things tat is related to love... Found tis rather intrestin... hope u guys enjoy readin it... Here is another work done by me... Tis time wif pool balls, its call " No.1 In My Heart".... LOL! Enjoy it:

* No.1 In My Heart*

- Achin pain -

2005-01-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

- Achin Pain -

Haven been playin basketball for quite a long while already, so after playin basketball 2daefor the entire afternoon... felt kind of tired & now my whole body is achin, guess i better do more exercise in the future.... Jus finish burnin the Ideas presentation into a CD, coz 2molo have to present our problem situatuion & solution durin the Ideas class.....

8 Jan'05 (Saturday):
Had to get up early tis very morning, had dental appointment, went off to Shaw House wif my brother to see our dentist, appointment was at 9.30am, but we reach there at abt 9.15am... The first patient couldn't make it, so i went in as the first patient of the day.... The whole thing was kind of fast, jus went in for 10mins like tat & come out.... all done.... After the dental visit, went off the Border's Burger King to eat breakfast & at the same time study.... My borther had some homework to do & i had to study for the microbiology test tat comin monday...Teck Ming msg me tellin me to help her find one song....Was kind of surprise thought tat she msg me... She was afraid tat she would forget the song title & thus msg me to help her find.... We left the place at around 11am & went off to Far East Plaza to get my brother sling bag.... Promise him a Christmas present, but couldn't get it for him then, so tat day brought him go buy sling bag coz he said he needed one for school... But most of the shops at Far East haven open yet.... but we walk around before headin down to Herren to shop for a church fren's birthday present.... While at Herren, my brother bought his Sling Bag, same brand as mind, somemore the same design but different colour..... He also bought a degree-less frameless specs..
Then we went upstair to 77th Street to choose a Cross neckalace for our church fren... After tat, went for lunch at Cineleisure KFC before headin down to Kovan Popular to get some stuff... reach home abt 3pm tat afternoon.... Was kind of fun goin out wif my brother tat day.....

9 Jan'05(Sunday):
Went to church at around 8plus tis morning, but before tat had breakfast at the Market... went for YM only, after YM, decided to head down to Coffee Bean to study Microbiology coz the next day after sch got test..... Sat there at coffee bean for like 2hrs plus... didn't read much, but manage to highlight lots of impt points... Even tried drawin cells while i was there.... Have to make up for wat i have yet to read up on, 2molo.... Order & Cafe Latte & a Mocha Ice blend while i was there.... After tat, decided to head down to Club House to play pool before my brother & our church fren came down to play basketball at the community centre... Left the club house at around 2pm like tat, met up wif my brother and fren before goin to the community centre.... Had lots of fun playin basketball 2dae, though most of the time Daniel( Some Foreigner frm our church who jus recently came to our church is like 1.96m tall)keep rejectin my shot & since he is tat tall & big size.... took advantage of small me & scored alot....ARGH! Anywae.. came back home at around 6plus goin to be 7pm....Very tired & at the same time, my whole body is achin.... Guess need a Gd rest 2nite & at the same time prepare for the test 2molo in sch....

Teck Ming ask me to find the Homerun ost song, "Yong You", But till now still can't find it except one which is frm a website, its WMA format & the song is like 49 secs long only...ARGH! Guess she will be disappointed when i tell her abt it...Feel kind of sad tat i am unable to find the song tat she request...Hope she dont mind...But never the less.... i will continue to find the song.... Hope tat i may find it... but still the chances of findin tat particular song is very slim Coz YC says tat there wasn't any album produced after the movie was screened....hmmm... Hope she's fine coz haven been seein her online tis entire weekend....Guess she's tired after workin durin the weekends... Guess she needs some rest too....Goin to see her in class 2molo aniwae.... =]!

- Gems Presentation -

2005-01-07T13:14:00.000+08:00

- Gems Presentation -

Haha.. At last the Gems presentation for 2molo is done at last.... All of my grp members have discuss abt somethings abt the presentation & have decided to do the presentation first 2molo... meanin, tat we are the first grp tat wish to present it 2molo.... Yar.. Get it done wif it & relax all the way.... My grp members are really funny pple.. they are such intrestin pple, all the other 3, Brandon, Eugene & Clemens play online game... they dont jus play one game onli, but alot like MU, Rose online & mani others which of course i dont noe any of it..... But havin a join conversation was very fun & we talk abt alot of stuff... LOL... guess they are really nice people to chat wif, guess tis are the pple i am gonna hang out wif durin Gems... Found out tat Brandon is born in the year 1980, whereas Eugene, Clemens & me, we all born in the year 1987...

Reall tirin 2dae, lesson frm 9am to 4pm... kind of shagged now, Teck ming has jus wen offline... Glad tat she is slpin now coz got early class at 8am.... hope she dont skipped it again like the previous 2 tutorial... Anywae... had dinner wif YC 2dae.... at kovan, then after tat went off to play pool wif him at Super Bowl, after tat, went back home to slack... wasn't really slackin.. had to discuss wif my Gems grp member abt the presentation 2molo.... Finally its over, now can get some rest at last... still have class 2molo....

Oh wait... before i end.. its past 12 already.. guess while i am here.. might as well put the answer for the game plus the winner.... Yup, the answer for 2nd previous entry... the answer actually is "Love in a Box"... And Amanda got it correct... so she won herself a Apple Pie & a Drink.... here is the pic.... i didn't cheat btw... i took tis pic on the same day when i took the the candles, box and stones on my 2nd previous entry.....

*The stone wif the word "Love" is in the box*
*Sorry tat the pic is blur....*

As for YC & Gary who took part in the game, thanks for ur participation & both of u guys will recieve a regular coke frm me for takin part...Thank u all & i hope next time i hold such game, u guys will take part again....LOL

- Headache -

2005-01-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

- Headache -

Argh.... Now havin headache again.. like yesterday..! My right side of my head is in such a pain now...*bang head against computer table* errr....... guess 2nite have to slp early again...Jus finish doin my Gems presentation, tis friday have to present some powerpoint presentation to the class.... Damn.. jus the 2nd class have to present liao....

Class kind of ended really early... Mrs Tham is such a nice teacher... let us go off early.... Lol... stayed back in sch again 2dae.. jus to see her... Teck Ming same Gems class as YC mah.. wanted to see her & sae hello to her one... but then again.. she came out wif Adaline...Damn... then suddenly lose my cofidence to talk.... Crap... guess tats wat i need to work on... Anyway... YC sae wanted to come over to my place, chomp chomp to eat, so went off to outram wif YC to get some food for his mother.... After tat, went back home, met my brother on the same bus on my way home.... Then asked him if he wanted to play basketball 2dae... He sae wan... Went back home to change to basketball jersey before goin to the basketball court near my house.... Play for an hour plus before YC call me, msg me saein tat he is comin down... but the msg was like 15mins ago when i took my hp out.... YC called me after i read the msg... then he told me was already waitin for bus at seragoon mrt station....Quickly took my hp & wallet and went back home to take a bath & went down to meet YC @ Chomp Chomp...

Order the usual food at Chomp Chomp.... one plate of Fried Hokkien Mee & a big glass of sugar cane wif lemon... YC jus love the hokkien mee here.... one big glass of sugar cane + a plate of hokkien mee will surely be enough for u... Confirm one... Finish dinner, went off to kovan wif YC to get his hair dye... he wanted to buy frm watson... So went wif him lor... besides nothing much to do at home also...after he bought his dye... we went home together...

Now talkin wif her online... then manage to get one new chinese song frm her.. but guess i will tell u pple wat the song is like....guess i better go to sleep now, if not my head will split.. argh.. wan to stay a little longer jus talkin to her... but my head really hurts now... guess i see her in class 2molo.. gd nitez everyone....
(-_-)zzZZ....

- Faith, Hope & Love -

2005-01-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

- Faith, Hope & Love -

Now jus done wif my dinner... now i am here sittin down, in front of my com, bloggin down the things tat have happen for the day....Sch had some sort of fair... sellin quite alot of things... there were stalls tat sold bags, shirts, ice snow dessert, tako pochi, Hot dogs wif mash potatos, candles, stone wif words on it & many more other stuff... Spend quite alot on jus buyin tis stuff, saw tat the things were rather nice and decided to purchase them....

Started the day wif 8am lesson in the morning, the very first lesson in the brand new year was Excel, the teacher taught some new stuff 2dae & let us do 2 Qs.... After class ended, went off for Microbiology practical, i like tis pratical, coz very lively, though most of the time it jus doin on cells & stuff tat relates to microbiology.... the class was like jokin away wif the teacher... and our pratical finish always finish early.... so had a long lunch break after tat before the next class.... Was kind of sleepy when i went for the Microbiology Lecture, was kind of fallin asleep in class when hearin the teacher talk abt virus structure and the life cycle.... so tired... After the lecture, went off for IDEAs, then had to form grps 2dae... didn't manage to form the same grp wif her either.. but i guess its alrite.... though i am given a chance to sae which grp i wan to join when i came back into the class after tat... Coz got a urgent phone call to make to confirm some things for my classmate & their pics.... But manage to be same grp as Jia hui & Cai Hua.... YC & MC was also the same grp as them.... LOL.... YC says he feels very pressure when Jia Hui was there..... LOL

Durin lunch time, i bought some things frm the fair beside FC2..... At first i bought 3 candles, coz its one for $2 and 3 for $5... buy one surely not worth it, so bought 3 and decided to give sabrina one.. Ask gary to choose one for her... Bought some food to eat as well frm the fair.... Bought the snow ice dessert to eat, strawberry flavour topped wif chocolate syrup... kind of taste weird though.... YUCK! Also bought Tako pochi to eat wif them as well.... it was really nice.... After the last class, we went back to the fair to see wat to buy again tis time, saw so many other nice stuff.... MC wanted to buy candle as well, so i bought another 2 more wif him, total, both him and i bought 3 candles, i took 2 & he took one.... Then at the stall beside, saw other nice decos, got tiles, stones, chopsticks & many other nice things... i bought 3 stones, each wif a word on it, " Faith, Hope & Love" are the 3 words.... then also bought a small box.. think tis might turn out to be a really nice gift if i give it to Teck Ming....hehe~ Here the pics, i think the pics looks blur.... sorry abt it everyone...:

*Here the 4 candles i bought*

*Here are the 3 stones, "Faith, Hope & Love"*

Lets play a game:
Here is a box i bought & there is something tat i have place inside of it... if u can guess wats inside the box, then i will treat the winner a Apple Pie plus a regular coke... how abt it? To win this game all u need to do is tag my tag board wif the answer like tis "______ in a box"... the answer will be posted as an entry wif the winner name on friday.... LOL.. so do take part and win urself the prize.... The clue can be found in many entries if u take a real close look at them... u onli got one chance to answer it rite... but if u don't u can always try my other games in the future....

*Wat is in the box?*

- The Year 2005 -

2005-01-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

- The Year 2005 -

Juz got back home frm my fren house, took a bath and now i am here to blog my entry for the day before i go to slp....

31st Dec '04:
Had to go early to sch 2dae again... There was IO Chem tutorial lesson at 8am.. had to wake up so early for the lesson, i dont really understand wat Collin Tan is teachin in class, all i need is a one to one tutorial session wif him, can skip tis early lesson the next time... Teck Ming didn't come to class again tis morning... wonderin if she couldn't get up tis time or tat she didnt wanted to attend tis tutorial as it dose not do her much help at all.... But found out tat she did come for her pratical after the tutorial frm Jia Hui...... At first wanted to ask her why she never come for class tis morning when i msg her new year greetings sms.. but then again... didn't ask at all in the end... Went off to watch "KungFu Hustle" wif YC 2dae... got lots of pple went to watch tis movie as well at PS, then the tickets for the 1540hr slot was sellin fast, lucky we manage to get the tickets... There was still time to spare, so we headed down to Monstercue.... Performance 2dae was really bad... Couldn't play well at all... lost lots of game.... Near the movie time, we went back to the cinema & i bought a popcorn combo... Got a big lollipop like Stephen Chow in the movie...After watchin the movie, went back home to have dinner wif my parents...And at 10pm tat nite, went for my church sevice which lasted till 12plus in the morning.... It was finally New Year...

*The Big Lollipop i got.*

1st Jan '05:
The new year has finally arrive at last, manage to send out all my New Year sms greetins to everyone includin her... After the service, went to a nearby prata store to eat prata, but then, didn't eat ani prata at all coz the pple there told us tat if we order prata have to wait very long.. we gave up the idea immediately & bought some bottles of soft drinks & bags of potato chips to my church fren's house.... Stay awake the whole nite talkin, playin cards & watchin movie..... Only manage to get a shut eye at around 7am in the morning, but only shut my eyes for like 20 mins before i woke up again.... Play ball at my fren's house wif the other guys who stayed over & then sat around the house listenin to them playin guitar before goin back home at around 12pm... Finally got home at last.. Need some rest now...

*A grp of the pple stayin overnite playin Big2*

*Everyone is tired & asleep now.*

*The food & drinks we had while we where there*

Tis year resolution:
- Study real hard, don't anyhow slack, get gd grades for semester exam...
- Be more nicer to everyone, already a nice person, but i like being nicer..... LOL
- Being frens wif 07 people...
- Lovin Teck Ming even more... Pray tat she will accept me.. Will take a very long time...
- Get ever closer to God
So tis here are the year's resolution and i hope tat i can complete all targets... *pray pray* Tat tis year will also be a more fun & excitin year wif lots of suprises and good stuff for every single one of us...."Happy New Year!" to all.... Now its time for me to go to slp..... (-_-)zzZZ.....

Here is for ur amusement, did a heart shape using cards, nothing special at all...was kinda bored so took the pack of cards and did something out of it & call it " Queen of My Heart" & Also did "I Luv U" wif the cards as well.....

*Queen of My Heart.*

*I Luv U*

- BrotherHood -

2004-12-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

- Brotherhood -

2nite will be the nite i intro u pple some of my brothers.... So the next time i talk abt them on my blog... u will noe who they really are.... So introducin my gang of Brothers.....:

Yi Cheng Aka YC
Tis fellow here is a very tall person.. he is the tallest in our class... A very smart & hardworkin person who likes to get work done ,never leaves things to the last minute... A person who is really very gd in a 9-ball pool game, plays very well when he is on fire....A person wif style also... & very specialise in studies of courtship.... Loves listenin to techno....First noe tis guy thru pratical grp, same grp wif him, slowly got to noe him better... now like buddy like tat... First time see him, think he Ah Beng.. turn out i was the Ah Beng tat MC & him first time look at me...

Mian Cun Aka MC
Funny person wif a weird laughter.... great buddy to have along as well... Always there for frens, dont mind goin out wif frens who need someone to accompany...A very nice boyfren who spends alot on a gift to give his Girlfren on X'mas... Really sweet of him....LOL! Also one hell of a jumper.. can jump freakin high... Pull rim!!WTF! Play pool quite well.... but can be really good wif improvement....LOL! Very Macho, got body & the looks... Also noe tis guy thru pratical grp, same grp as YC as well.. always doin pratical together...

Wei Chee Aka WC/Bee Bee
Tis person, plays very well in pool, pocket alot of shots... Smallest person in the gang but very friendly.....(dont whack me WC!!) The most on person, say do tis and he will be there to do it... Though most of time he is wif his girlfren.. his presence is not forgotten.... Got to noe tis guy thru YC & MC.... It was like after 2 weeks since the start of sch of our first year then i got to noe tis guy.. i also thought tis guy was a Ah Beng, but he turn out otherwise... he is really frenly... & also a very nice guy.... nice to his girlfren tat is....LOL!

Gary Aka DJ Fanny
This is the person who is the same age as me & also the person whom i talk most to & spend time wif him.... Got alot of things to talk to him durin class time & always play bluff wif teacher... exchange our name so as to see how confuse the teacher can really get when she starts to noe our real name.... A person whom is also very good at pool & also very funny.... loves listenin to all sorts of song & sometime intro me new songs....He is also a person who can imitate a teacher in sch... Ms Audrey chen.... LOL! Noe tis guy only when he started interactin wif YC, MC, WC & me....

Jun Yuan Aka Da Ge
Last but not least... Our Da ge.... Oldest among the 6 of us... A person who is very smart & extremely frenly... A person wif a big heart.... Though not wif us most of the time... he is considered to be one of the brothers... Got to noe after when i noe the other 4, WC, YC, MC & Gary....

Lastly, here is our brotherhood pic....LOL... taken at Villa Franics when we were doin CIP...

- Frm Left to Right -
*Top: Jun Yuan, Wei Chee & Gary.*
*Bottom: Me, Yi Cheng & Mian Cun.*

- Class Tutor -

2004-12-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

- Class Tutor -

Life do seem bored at time, but there are always things/people around who will brighten up our day....Juz take example, my class is a very active, got lots of things to say and do, we are the more hyper active class, loves to joke wif teachers & make fun of them too... Unlike our buddy class, they are the more quiet type.. they do however joke and talk wif the teachers, but as much as we do.... Usually behind the class, all 5 of us guys, YC, MC, WC, Gary me would be jus siting there and talkin..... Sometimes, one of us would come up wif a joke tat will keep the 5 of us laughin at the back of the class, then after tat, we would tell the joke to our other frens in class, they too will be laughin wif us... All the good fun & laughter... YC was tryin to act like our class tutor 2dae.. he does do a real good job of pretendin to be her.. made so much of us at the back row laugh, the people infront of us were also laughin.... guess we were laughin for the past 1 1/2 hr durin maths lecture.... He was really funny....

At last i see her online, when i told her tat i haven been talkin to her for the past few days, at first i thought she was jus busy thru out the week, didn't have time to come online, but she told me tat her com was down, so she couldn't come online..... Happen to bump into her 2 times 2dae.... one was durin lunch time, she sat at the table behind the table me & my frens were havin lunch.... & the other was after our maths class & i was on my way to the library wif YC to do some report for my CPPB experiment, at first saw Jun yuan they all, then notice tat she & her frens were behind them... YC notice the way i walk quickly into the library.... and then he ask me if i was avoidin her on our way home.... i told him tat i was... but only abit.. if i was really avoidin her... i would have not shown myself infront of her.... but anyway.. before tat, durin lunch time, YC thought i took off so quickly coz i was avoidin her... actually, i needed to do my Microbiology tutorial, so i had to go off to do it outside the classroom....

But i am still glad to see her 2dae... did some talkin to her online... wanted to send a piece of classical music, but then again... she got it so didn't send her..Its Canon in D By Pachabel... i like tis piece.. nice music...One more last thing before i end.... her nick tis time is "- xIaO sHa - If u wan to see the rainbows... u need to bear wif the rain... [http://xiaoteckteck.diaryland.com]"... guess she's rite...if u wan to see a rainbow, u will have to bear wif the rain, then only will u see a rainbow after tat.....likewise if u wan to love someone, there are obstacles u must go thru also... only if u bear wif the pain of love will u get to enjoy the sweetness of the love u found after tat....

- Down as Usual -

2004-12-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

- Down as Usual -

Kind of feelin down again... Yup, its love once again.. tis down feelin is back again... i dont noe why but it jus tat the feelin is back to haunt me... Seein her always seem happy, but when i really start to miss her....tat same old feelin always come back to me... Love seems so painful & torturin at times... how u wish tat it would end & tat there be no more pain... But when one is in love, the need to sacrafice something is great.... Even if it means hurtin u so much... Its always very easy to tell someone to stop lovin u, but its diffcult for tat person to forget the one they wan to love or have loved before.... "Love is easy to start, Difficult to end & Impossible to forget..." tis quote, i found at it some site, its really meaninful & its really true abt wat it says abt love....

Yes, it may seem easy to start love, all it takes is jus a few seconds to develope feelins for the opposite sex, but after tat, it all depends on the person if he/she wans to continue to have feelins for the opposite sex.... For those who continue to love the person they like, tats call love.... Once love has blossom, its difficult to jus end it, no matter how hard the other party tell the person abt not wantin them & tat they have no feelins for them, its jus simply diffcult to jus come to an end like tat.... Here comes the last part..... Its impossible to forget....Yup, its really impossible to forget the love tat u once had for the person..... Who would wan to forget abt the time they were in love, such wonderful memories. Though endings may seems very painful..... And tat both party always say tat they will forget each other & move on wif life, but it always seem impossible..... many still can't get over the person they once loved.... Needless to sae even to forget them....
" Love is easy to start, Difficult to end & Impossible to end." , these are jus my view on it.

I remember i once talk to Cai Hua on the net & ask her a really weird Qs. tat nite.... I ask her who would she choose if there were 2 guys:
Guy no.1. you have feelins for tis guy but he has bad attitude & he is really mean to u...
Guy no.2. U have very little or no feelins for him, but he loves u wif all his heart and soul....
Both are in danger now, who would u wan to save? She replied me sayin tat she would save Guy no.1 & her reasons was tat even though the guy is mean to her... there are other reason y she may have like him in first place.. as for his flaw & problems, she says tat she can jus ignore it.... Weird, i thought most girls would wan to save guy no.2, coz most of the time they sae they wan someone who loves them and not be mean to them.... Then, i guess i am guy no.2 then, i am the one on the losin end if i wan to love someone.... yet the person has no feelins for me.... Lets turn the tables around now... Now another guy/girl has to choose between 2 girls/guys & tat u're person no.2, would u blame the person who didn't save u? Tis question is up to us each to find a answer for ourselves....

Aniwae... enough talkin frm me now... Guess many may think tat i am jus talkin crap... but tis are wat i always think abt... As for Teck Ming, i hope tat she will understand the position i am in now... & i pray tat she will noe how much it hurts for a person to love a person they like..... maybe its time for me to do something abt it.... i jus have to urge to see her alot & there are many things i wan to talk to her abt....But i jus simply dont noe when or where i shld start all tis... Anywae... i will always love her... Never doubt the impossibility in life... its all up to u to decide whether somethings are impossible or possible..... Nothing is impossible in life....

Here is for ur amusement... tis figure was done usin dough durin our idea lesson, read my previous entry abt the doughs.... i think i shall call it the "Lovin Shit Couple" Coz the structure of the figures are shit. Beside, both figures look very lovin..... LOL!

*Done by MC & Gary, but most credit shld be given to MC coz its him who came up wif the idea*

- New Shoe -

2004-12-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

- New Shoe -

Jus finish packin up the kitchen... Had lots of cleanin up to do... Had to use the kitchen and do playdough for 2molo IDEA class... coz they sae need the dough to do models... Bought abt 3 packs of 1kg flour, 1 small bottle of Cream TarTar, 2 bottles of food colourin(Red & Blue) & 2 boxes of Fine salt... all in all, only use abt 2 packs of flour the most, YC also brought flour frm his house, abt a pack & 1/4 of flour... We made abt 5 big dough, each abt 800g in weight... out of the 5, one of it wasn't really tat gd.. it was the one i was doing... maybe i left something out of the dough, tats y its not like the other 4 dough.... Took us lots of work jus to do it dough.... but i was all worth it... got lots of different colour of dough...

First thing in the morning had to wake up early to go church, had Youth Ministry to attend, coz i missed out alot to days spendin time wif my church frens.. After YM, went for the 11am service as well....After church went down to Queensway shoppin centre to purchase my shoe 2dae... coz my parents sae tat my shoe is old now & needs to be change... so jus wen down to buy the shoe.... At first wanted to get the same shoe as my church fren, same design & colour somemore..... but then again, my Dad was tellin me not to wear a 1/2 a size bigger then the size i am wearing now... At first the shop asst brought me size 12 1/2, wear it and felt tat i was comfortable... but my Dad told me not to get it..... better not get 1/2 a size too big.. The shoe itself cost abt $150, coz its limited edition.... but then again, didn't buy the shoe, went off to another shop to see... Then saw the same black shoe tat i saw at Shaw House, Lido cinema... it was the same model, Adidas Original Fleetwood as the limited ed shoe i wanted to get frm the previous store.... i ask for my shoe size & the shop pple have my size... lucky me... last time wanted to get another shoe wif my size couldn't get it... Try on the shoe.. it was perfect & my Dad purchase the shoe.. Tis time the shoe cost only $99.... Save so much.... LOL.. 2molo will be wearin it.

* My Adidas Original Fleetwood Low*

After tat went lunch wif both my Dad & Mum @ Ghin Moh, ate one of the famous Char Kway Teow stall, went to line up for it, waited abt for half an hour before it reach my turn to order... ARGH! But the food was nice, enjoy eatin it.... Then after lunch wen back home, rest awhile before goin down to Gardens to meet YC , Wei Chee & Shu Ling for dinner... It was WC & Shuling first time here... & also their first time visitin my home after dinner... Haven deen seein Teck Ming online tis few days.. wonder how shes been after work on Christmas day itself... Hope tat she is enjoyin herself.... Anyway.. its gettin late.. need some rest.. 2molo lesson is at 8am.. So early... ARGH!

- Merry X'mas -

2004-12-25T01:16:00.000+08:00

- Christmas At Last -

~Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year to All...!~

Jus got back frm Monstercue, was playin pool wif YC ... Kind of tired now... Teck ming is now slpin i presume... she still got work 2molo morning... Was wonderin at first why she wanted to work on Christmas instead of enjoyin it.... She told me thru sms tat work on chirstmas got more money to earn....Gd anyway... coz wif more cash, she get watever she likes.... May she have a very gd slp 2nite...

Had to go sch for IO Chem tutorial tis morning.. some more its 8am in the morning... was really tired, wakin up so early jus to come to sch... But anywae.. Mr Collin Tan was nice.. gave everyone Chocolate after his lecture in class.... The chocolate designs was nice.. till now still haven eaten the Spider chocolate i taken.. though its kind of damage.... Was kind of worried for Teck Ming tis morning when she didn't come to class at all... Was worried tat she was sick on Christmas eve... But found out tat she did come for her CPPB pratical after the IO Chem tutorial... Found out tat she over slept when i was msgin her in the afternoon..... She woke up abt 8am... then was late liao.. so jus went for the pratical..... As for me.. I went wif my class for IO Chem pratical... was doin Crystallisation experiment... Was kind of unsuccessful after so long.... ARGH! Then after the pratical, left sch to go home....

Had to meet Dennis at Dhoby Ghaut @ 3pm... but ended up headin back to kovan to play Billard wif his frens... all his frens were really good... can shoot long distance shot.... Play wif them lose by so many points....ARGH! At around 5pm, had to go down to Plaza Singapura to meet Simon & Ms Lim.... Tis time Simon brought along his Girlfren.. His girlfren was quite pretty.... Ate wif them & we left together at abt 7pm, but Ms Lim had to rush off to other place for dinner, so she left @ 6.30pm... As for me.. i was waiting for YC & MC to come to PS to meet me & then go have fun tat nite... Saw Jim at PS there... We talk wif him for quite a while before we left the place & took a train down to Tanjong Pagar to meet Gary & Andy.... Wanted to go drinkin at first.. but the again... had to pay entrance fee & also must wait 10pm then go into Pub.. didn't have much cash, so left the place wif YC to go play Pool @ Monstercue... MC & Gary stayed @ Pub, went to drink....then YC sae meetin frens in town... but then never go find them... So played till past Midnite then went home wif YC in a Taxi...... Was kind of lazy to take Train....

While playin pool, was sendin X'mas msges to alot of pple.. wishin them Merry Xmas.. was intendin to send Teck Ming a Tigger X'mas MMS... then ended up didn't send coz the thing format cannot be supported in MMS, but aniway..... will send it to her 2molo morning, wishing her Merry Xmas & a Gd day at work... LOL... Now very tired... Maybe i will stay up a little more... watch TV or something before goin to Bed... Once again, Wishin Everyone a "Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year!" To Teck Ming, " May Tis X'mas means something special to you..."

- Christmas list -

2004-12-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

- X'mas Wishlist -

Well, X'mas is comin in another 48 hours time... was thinkin of getting Teck Ming a gift tis X'mas but then again, broke my own personal promise on tat... didn't get her even a single thing at all.... Then 2dae wanted to stay in sch jus to see her... but then again.. went out wif MC, Gary & Sabrina to play pool instead.... Kind of feelin tat i am a person who can't keep promises to myself... Say wan to do for a moment, then later dont even do it at all.... Kind of regreated tat i went to play pool instead of stayin around in sch to jus see her.... Wanted to pretend to be waitin outside YC Gems class venue, then might have chance to see her.... even if she might ignore me.... There was jus a sudden urge to see her 2dae...

Talkin abt X'mas, will be meetin Dennis & Simon tis X'mas eve with Ms Lim... She's our ex sec 1 Chinese/ It Club Teacher... But she left our sch & found another teachin area at RI there.... So tis comin friday will be some sort of reunion for the 3 of us... wonderin who would also be goin along.... Tis few days have been really funny for the bunch of us.... Me & MC have been coming up funny X'mas songs... we were like singin softly at the back of the classroom & was laughin all the while..... Then the Maths & Microbiology teachers were kind of mixed up on who me & Gary were... Both of us jus like to switch name & be one another....

Tis year X'mas Wishlist for me:
LOVE

Tats all i wan to get... Love.. i wan her to noe tat she has someone who wans to love her so much.... I can do without all the gifts & stuff.... but wat i wan is jus love, no more then tat.... But as for her... i pray for Gd health for she & her family like i always do.... To love is one of the greatest gift frm heaven above... Her msn nick shows: "- xIaO sHa - To love is agony, to be loved is a blessing...[http://xiaoteckteck.diaryland.com]" Yar... i love her no matter how much pain i am put thru... but i willin to endure the pain so tat she can recieve all the blessin frm the love tat i want to give.... Tis is the season of Sharing & Giving, A season of Thanksgiving & Celebration & also a Season of Love.... Merry X'mas to all.... And may the Lord bless everyone tis X'mas....

- Cousin's Wedding -

2004-12-19T01:38:00.000+08:00

- Cousin's Wedding -

Juz got back frm my cousin wedding, took a bath & now i am here to record all tat has happen for the past 2 daes....

Friday:
Went off to sch early in the morning for IO Chem tutorial.... Has kind of tired... coz almost every morning thru out the week we have to wake up early so as to attend any 8am lesson.... Then after the tutorial, had CPPB pratical at workshop 3 there.... My grp pratical was the longest time consuming pratical we had... We were the last grp to leave the workshop tat day.... But the day wasn't over... still had to attend my Gems module @ T1A.... Though the lecture/tutorial/pratical was suppose to be 2hr long, i sat in wif another 20 unkown pple for abt an hour then i left the place... Durin tat 1hr time, i had to form grps wif other pple to do a presentation tat is due in Week 3..... ARGH! So soon already got things to do.... And besides, its very soon... Its the week after Christmas!!! So the Gems lesson ended 2 around 2pm, went off to T7 to wait for Gary & MC, wanted to go down to Bugis, Pool Academy to play pool tat day... brought along my cue stick tat day... But still have to wait for Sabrina after tat... bought a Bear couple outside Mac. Saw it was kind of cute.. so bought it... After tat, waited for a while before Sabrina met us & we went to PA to meet Yi Cheng, had lots of fun playin pool tat afternoon till evening, then went off to Bugis Junction to walk, had lots of fun & laughter walkin abt here and there.... Saw ideas for X'mas gifts for each of the person we like..... Tat after tat took the MRT & went home @ around 8pm+ close to 9pm...

Saturday:
Woke up early in the morning, preparing to go to my cousin house, coz today is her wedding day... She is my father's elder brother's daughter... So tat why i am very closely related to her.....So went to her place at abt 9.45 like tat, sat around before she & the groom came back to her house for the tea ceremony, then after the wedding lunch @ my cousin's place went back home before attendin the church wedding service @ Toa Payoh there...The whole thing ended at around 4pm like tat, went back home again to prepare for the wedding dinner @ nite.... The Wedding dinner was held @ Swissotel Merchant Hotel... Show up wif both my parents & brother at the ballroom @ abt 8pm like tat.... Drank lots of beer & red wine while i was there... My mom restricted me frm drinkin any wine or beer.... but i still went on wif it.... didn't care much either....The food was great & all the guest enjoyed themselves.... The Bride & Groom went frm table to table toasting & takin pictures.... The whole dinner ended at abt 11pm like tat.... Left the place at abt 11.30pm like tat after sayin our goodbye to my uncle & aunties plus both the Bride & the Groom.... The whole day attending my cousin's wedding has shown me how wonderful love is.... wouldn't forget the lesson i picked up frm today's wedding... Jus want to wish my cousin & her husband, "Good health, may u love one another till u both grow old..." LOL....

Next week is X'mas already... Talkin abt it.. i have got some ideas of wat to get for Teck Ming as a X'mas gift when i was jus walkin around @ Bugis wif Gary they all on Friday, was thinking of gettin her a Tigger soft Toy... maybe a bit big.. but i think it will be a nice gift to give her... Will be shoppin for the X'mas present for her the coming week... & i still have to go for class on X'mas Eve..... ARGH! Though they sae its half day... so lame.... i rather not have class tat day... Pray hard tat tis X'mas would be a very nice X'mas tis year....

-Pool Cue-

2004-12-15T20:09:00.000+08:00

-Pool Cue-

Whahaha... Finally got my very first & own pool cue... But... pay really alot for the pool cue itself... Cost me like $210 for the cue itself... then another $55 for the cue bag.... Then another $10 for the cue stick joint protector... Then another 50cents for the chalk... ARGH.... All in all, spent abt $275.50.... Now tats really alot... Looks like gonna be really broke for the next few weeks or for the month....

Tried out my new cue at mambo.... At first was kind of scared usin my new cue... coz it was much more lighter in weight and the cue stick was wobblin in the beginning, so was kind of careful when i was usin it.. Gary couldn't really get used to my stick either... say it was a little light....The first few shots were kind of off.... Didn't go in much balls... but still, things change for the better, manage to get really used to my new cue & play rather well .... Anywae.... Was really glad to get my cue finally.... Still have to get a few more things b4 i am completed..... Maybe a cue cloth, chalk holder... then maybe also a key chain... i like the no.1 Ball key chain.. Cost abt $6 or less... But until then, jus have to wait before i can buy... now really no money liao....

Here is my cue:

-The whole cue is black frm top to bottom, tats my cue bag below my cue-

-At Last-

2004-12-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

-At Last-

Finally she came online.... And she updated her blog ... Apparently shes havin headache since Saturday... Decided to tell her to take care of herself... Just open a conversation box & typed tis in, "Do take care of urself.".... Then close it... wasn't really expectin her to reply me at all.... Then suddenly, got reply....:

- xIaO sHa - : wad?
+[Ah_KInG]+ : i mean take care of urself.. u havin a bad headache rite?
- xIaO sHa - : oh..
+[Ah_KInG]+ : yar....
+[Ah_KInG]+ : saw ur blog
- xIaO sHa - : thanks
+[Ah_KInG]+ : no prob.

At first thought tat she was angry at me for tellin her tat... But turn out to be otherwise... Yup... Really happy tat she finally talk to me... LOL! Simple minded me... The nice word in the conversation is the word "thanks"... haven heard anything like tis nice since 2 or 3 mnths ago.... Really glad =]!!

2molo will be the day i go choose & buy my cue stick... Been waitin for tis day... Now i can get my very own cue stick... but still hopin tat i dont over spend on it... Jus a gd cue stick can liao.. plus a cue bag to go along wif it.... =] ! But the cue stick i wan to get is like whole thing black like tat.... frm top to bottom black... hope i can get tis type of cue stick... Gary will be goin wif me 2molo to see also...

-forgive me-

2004-12-08T21:23:00.000+08:00

-Forgive me-

To all my frens in sch, next week monday we are all goin to start sch, i have been down lately.... so forgive me if i act really rash, weird or even something worst then i can expect.... so tis is jus a notice before i really meet you pple....

My Arch Angel

2004-12-06T10:05:00.000+08:00

-=The Arch Angel=-

found is pic frm a website.. Edited it abit and its now on my friendster, been thinkin of being an angel when i return back to heaven to serve my lord, God almighty... but even before i return back to him, let me serve him now & protect all my love ones here on earth. I am like an angel wif armours & a sword.... hahaha =] :

*Tis is the Arch Angel pic. Looks cool dosen't it?*

-Testin out-

2004-12-05T01:44:00.000+08:00

Tryin out tis new layout... hope its nice...

-Number ball game-

2004-12-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

Went out in the afternoon to play pool with Yi Cheng & Mian Cun today....Went all the way to Orchard Cineleisure K Pool to play..... At first go in there we only manage to get one 9ft table to play with... But then again... MC & YC sae wanna see girls... so we change our table to a 8ft one.... But go there end up seein nothing at all they say... So we no choice coz no more 9ft table, we play on the 8ft table before goin off for dinner....

We had dinner at Far East Plaza... got one good stall upstair tat sells gd noodles & stuff to eat..... Had the fried Hor fun like MC, but he ate the slice fish dish whereas i ate the beef slice dish.... YC ordered the Claypot yee mee to eat... Tis dish also very nice... Last time i went with Gary & yi cheng ate tis same dish as well.... We even ordered the hot plate beancurd.... WHA!!! tis dish cost $12.... But very nice to eat.... had lots of eggs, vege & also beancurd... then also got lots of gravy as well.... After dinner, we decided to head back down to Cine again to buy liquor & drink.... Gary called & wanted to meet us there.... So while waiting for Gary to come.... YC, MC & me decided to go up to K Pool again to see pple play.... but we ended openin a 9ft table to play.... Saw all my secondary sch frens there.... Martin, Ah lau & also weici.... long time never see them liao.. so went over to their billard table there and talk wif them lor.... Gary came wif his fren & we went downstairs to Cheers to buy liquor to drink.... Some liquor MC intro us... taste like medicine... YUCK!

Gary fren wanted to play billard.... so we went off the Cuppage(Garbage) Mechmaster there to play... The table down there really sux like hell... tats y also call garbage... still have to pay quite alot to play on tis fuckin rubbish table....Waste money onli.... But no choice.... tats the onli place to play.... So went there but no billard table to play, so open pool table to play wif Gary's fren, sae wan to play loser punch race to 5, so played wif him lor... first round won him, then second round... thought all Gary's fren can play pool very well... in the end, won him 4 games straight & he decided to close table to get the billard table.... While playin wif him loser punch, i could see tat he is fustrated.... But we waited a while before i play billard with him... Lost to him when he pocketed the last black ball.... Shucks!

Then he & gary decided to play Number ball... Got hear before the game, seen it before as well but never play it before.... so need one more person to play wif... so i join in lor.... The game is like pool like tat, using no. balls like in pool to play, at first don noe sae foul ball cost 30cents, let opponent hit in bonus ball (14,15) cost $1.50, the winner who finish the card in his hand get $1 frm each player... The the no. 1 - 13 are the same as the cards, like frm ace to king like tat play... So play wif them the first round... Lost like $2 like tat... Damn suay sia..... but the second & also the last game, manage to win last minute... heng arh! all my balls near the pocket so can pocket it easily.... so won abt $3 or less like tat..Last minute luck sia.... LOL! Kind of happy tat i can win the game, coz its a new game.. though skills for billard are there... its a new game wif a different way of playin.. kind of fun too... so next time try playin wif Gary, YC & MC.... but of course without money.... Like tat can enjoy the game at the same time without worryin abt money.....

Wonder wat shes been doin 2dae as well... next semester i am gonna see her for 5 modules... kind of glad & thankful tat her class & my class are still gonna be buddy class again... LOL... can finally see her alot more...... hehe~ Hope tat tis time... Both classes can become really gd frens....as for me... all i can hope is tat i can be wif her... tats all.... hehe... =]!!

+Missing love alot+

2004-11-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

well... guess i have been really feelin kind of down lately.... guess maybe it bcoz of her..... haven been seein her for already the past few days... she didn't update her blog yet..... haiz.... guess when a person is in love wif another person.... he/she will miss the person they love dearly.... Have anyone ever thought tat love would be painful yet wonderful in another way....? i guess many have thought abt it...

Love is wonderful & has taught me many things in life... i am a product out of love... not in a sense tat i was a product made by both my parents.... but some how the person who i am, my character are a result of love tat i have in me.... Yes.... i am a person wif lots of love.... I am proud and glad to sae tat i have love in me & tat i wan to show her.... but watever i may love.... there are painful price tat i must pay.... i dont mind all tis, so long as i can continue to love anione & everyone....

I think as a person, go for wat u desired, the person whom u love, fight for them with ur whole heart.... love them with both ur mind & soul & never give up on them without even trying..... tat is surely one of the biggest & saddest mistake one would commit.... U will never noe if they will love u after u have tried.... I think i may be talkin rubbish here now.... but tis are thoughts tat i have ponder in my mind....

Well...i guess i will talk some more abt love thoughts in my mind someother time.... when i can think abt it.... till then i will continue lovin & holdin onto hope.....

-Exam result-

2004-11-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

Took me so long to jus find a time jus to add something to my blog... be kind of lazy or busy to update my blog..... But aniwae.... Here are my exam result:

MODULE & GRADES
MS2125 - BASIC MATHS : A
SP0201 - CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT : A
CP4088 - MATERIALS IN PRACTICE : B
CP5034 - CHEMICAL PROCESS PRINCIPLES A : B
CP4008 - APPLIED ELECTRICITY & ELECTRONICS : B
LC0218 - CRITICAL REASONING SKILLS : C+
CP4001 - ANALYTICAL & PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY : C+

hmmm.... was kind of worried tat i would fail at least my AP chem...... but it looks like tat i manage to pass the module & even get a C+.....LOL but aniwae.... glad tat i am advancin to the next stage wif all of my frens... lol.... yup all of us manage to promote on to the next stage.....YAY!

Teck ming also change her name already..... looks like i am gonna miss her old name alot.... every time think of her always call her Teck ming.... Well.... she changed her name to "Wan Rong Xi Calida".... hmmmm... her new name does sound quite nice.... but i am still havin a hard time tryin to pronouce her english name.... wonder how it sounds like.....Miss her alot these few days..... her results were quite gd... but thought at her blog she says tat she didn't really do well for CPPA, she felt kind of disappointed. Told her tat she can try harder the next time on Messenger & also to cheer up...... Ok... Aniwae.. Thank god for her result =]......Here is her result:

CP4001 - Analytical & Physical Chemistry : A
SP0201 - Character Development : A
CP4088 - Materials In Practice : B+
LC0218 - Critical Reasoning Skills : C
CP5034 - Chemical Process Principles A : C+
CP4008 - Applied Electricity & Electronics : C+

have been enjoyin myself wif the guys tis few days..... had lots of fun playin pool & hangin out wif them.... My gang of frens are like the next big thing in my life.... life do seem boring if i do not have them around me..... LOL.... Aniwae.... Left like 2 or 3 weeks before sch starts....Really really hope to see her soon & maybe ask her out before sch starts.....though she says she got work.... but i must continue to try... i will never give up.....

-=Relaxtion=-

2004-11-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

Went back to sch again 2dae.... went for a swim wif Gary at SPGG(Singapore Poly Graduate Guild) swam like for an hour before we came out of the pool, was like drizzling outside...... Then we went into the Gentlemen wellness centre, wondered why they call tat for..... Aniwae... Went into the steam room & sat wif Gary for like 10 mins before we came out again & sat down in the hot pool, was really hot but shiok aniwae....... Sat around the spa area like for the next 20 mins before we went off to take a bath....

After bath, we went off around the entire guildhouse exploring... but we didn't do much explorin either... jus ended up at the bowlin alley where we played for the next 1hr or so... at first wanted to go off to city hall to walk down there... its been a long time i walk around there.... but didn't go in the end... went off for lunch wif gary at FC2 & then went to the library to borrow DVD to watch at home.... Was watchin wif gary "Treasure planet".... hahaz... the tiny pink colour shape shifter was very funny thru out the entire movie.... Watch until 4.30pm like tat, decided to walk to the MRT station thru foodcourt 5.... Suprising, while we were walkin down there.... Gary Sunddenly was stuned for a moment before he told me he saw Teck ming walk past us..... Though before tat got one group of pple walk past us....Didn't noe it was her & her frens.... thought gary was lyin to me.... But he was rite..... ARGH!!!! Never see her or even notice her at all.....Damn it...! never mind..... Sat down at the bench outside FC5, drank & talk wif gary for awhile before we went off to the MRT station....

She finally updated her blog after so many days..... Wonderin how she has been for the past few days... but its seems tat she is enjoyin her holidays... tat is good.... hahaz.... i hope to see her soon again one day.... be it at sch or outside... Hope tat she will continue to enjoy the rest of her holidays..... miss her so much.....Hahaz

-=Love=-

2004-10-26T16:07:00.000+08:00

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices, either tells what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.
It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds...but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship...one leads to another and the process is irreversible...the best of lovers is the greatest of friends!!! I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend. I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want... then I realized it was YOU, too bad cos it's you can't have... I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me...and you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go to find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free...

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?" Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love, we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them till they are in the arms of someone else...

Food for thought, think of this.. Have you really cared for someone more than you expected? Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name? Will you???

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits. When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing. If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using... True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay, the harder it is to leave...and you can never go without leaving your prints behind... Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Love them like a river because a river flows forever... Love doesn't have to have a Happy Ending, cos love doesn't have to end at all.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again."

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall!
[Taken frm: xiaoteckteck.diaryland.com]

Exam round the corner..

2004-10-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

Exam is really comin round the corner... i have yet to start on my revision.... Juz hope tat i will really start 2molo... if not i will not have enough time to study at all....

Exam Schedule
CP4001 A&P Chem - 27/10
MS2125 Basic Maths - 29/10
CP4088 MIP - 01/11
CP5034 CPPA - 05/11

Saw Teck Ming durin the A & P Chem revision lesson, i was kind of worried when i didn't saw her there.... i thought she was sick.... but she appeared before our lecturer started the revision wif us.... Tis few daes are very crucial to us... i dont wan her to get sick or anithin like tat, will be prayin for her health for the next 2 weeks.... Hope tat she is revising well for her semester exam.... But seein her 2dae was good, haven been seein her like for the past 3 or 4 days.... Yup, though it may seem a very short time.... i miss her alot.... But now is the time for study.. i shldn't be distracted by anything else but study itself..... Maybe after the exam... i will try askin her out... Hope she won't sae no to me...

I have even thought of a joint class outin wif the pple frm 1A07, hope tat they will welcome the idea..... i noe tat somehow we have gotten off wif a bad start wif the class since the first day of sch... but still we are like gonna see each other anywhere in our sch compound..... Jus come out together to have fun & be frens..... Its better to make more frens then enemies in life......I noe tat tis idea may seem weird & i won't noe if they would even show up for tis joint class outin.... But seriously, i think tis joint class outin will help to strengthen the realtionship between both classes & tat we may get to noe each other better......

Good luck to all my classmates in DCHE 1A03 & DCP 1A07 for the exams.....Hope tat we all can do well for the exam together.... =] !!

-=Bus & Love Theory=-

2004-10-18T22:55:00.001+08:00

Found tis @ her blog.. Found it intrestin & thought of sharin tis....

-=The Bus & Love Theory=-
Love is like waiting for a bus.When the bus comes, you look at it and you say to yourself "eeee...so full....cannot sit down, I'll wait for the next one." So you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.

Then the second bus came, you looked at it you said, "eeee...this bus is so old...so shabby!" So you let the bus go and again, decided to wait for the next bus.

After a while another bus came, it's not crowded, not old but you said, "eeee...not air conditioned...better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it was getting late. You panicked and jumped immediately inside the next bus.It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus!And you wasted your time and money just to get into the wrong one! Even if an air conditioned bus comes, you can't ensure that the air conditioned bus won't break down or whether or not the air conditioner will be too cold for you. Wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance. If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you just press the red button and get off the bus!

Hey, who said life is fair??? The best thing to do is be observant and open-minded. If it doesn't suit you, get off. I'm sure you've had this experience before. You saw a bus coming (the bus you want of course). You flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not see you and zoomed pass you! It just wasn't meant for you!

The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating the bus by giving it a chance depends totally on you. If you haven't made any choice, WALK! Walking is like being single. The good side of it is you can still choose any bus you want...the rest who couldn't afford another ride would just have to be content with the bus they rode on, ugly or not. Also, sometimes it is better to choose a bus you are already familiar with rather than to gamblewith a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then again, life wouldn't be complete without the risks involved.

But there is one bus that I failed to tell you about -- the Bus you do not have to wait for, the Bus that will stop on its own and ask you if you wish to come inside, then take you for a joy ride for the rest of your life. Hope you get to ride on that bus! =)

Like i sae before... everyone shld be given a chance to be love or to love others.... There is no harm in givin a chance...i hope tat you will give me tis chance when i ask you the next time Teck Ming....

-=Seein someone=-

2004-10-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

Happen to saw Josephine todae, outside my holdin area for my church @ PLMGPS.... Didn't noe tat her holdin church was also there, her church happens to be @ PLMGSS..... Wat a coincidence.... Its been a long time since i saw her.... Still could remember the time i tried to court her in secondary sch..... Its been so long, though it ended wif a sad ending, i aint tat unhappy abt it.... Seein her todae made me feel kind of happy.... But somehow deep inside me, there is a feelin tat she is remindin me tat i shld carry on lovin Teck Ming....

I was msgin josephine all the time while i was havin Youth ministry.... we had lots of things to talk abt.... Then while i was in the youth ministry.... There was a talk goin on, the topic was on spiritual gift... i wonder wat my spiritual gift might be? Would it be the gift of healin? The gift of tounges?The gift of wisdon? Wat ever it maybe... it would soon be revealed to me.... But there are other gifts given to us by god.... i am sure of one thing & tat is i have the gift of a good heart...=] hahaz...

The past few daes have been really tiring for me.... I have been havin tests since thursdae... & 2molo i will be havin MIP, looks like i am not goin to do well for the test 2molo.... tried readin up on it... but still unable to get anithing into my head.... Well, i think i shall try readin it up 2molo, i hope a fresh mind will help.... But if i don do well for tis test.... i shld make it up durin my semester exam... must study hard and do well for all my semester exam paper, can't afford to fool around too much.... Must do well..... i will be prayin for Teck Ming as well... i noe she is kind of worried abt her MIP as well..... but i believe tat she will do well.... she is a smart girl...

i dont wan to fail ani modules tis semester, i wan to move onto the next stage wif all my frens & classmates, they are a great bunch of pple to be wif..... So lets all work hard together pple, lets work hard to advance to the next stage..... Well, the same goes for all my other frens in SP & as well as my buddy class, DCP 1A07....

+[The love in the world]+

2004-10-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

Well, jus a question for everyone to think.... Wat is love? I think tat love in 2dae's world is like findin a really nice lookin person who has a really good personality..... Or also known as Mr/Ms Perfect..... Well, tis is wat the world has been showin to the people all these years.....ever since we were born into tis world... we have been shown wat "Love" is like.... Handsome boy meets Beautiful girl, both fall in love.... Then comes some obstacle in their live, overcome all of it & then have a happy ending... Sounds very fairy tale like aint it? Wouldn't u also wan tis type of love?

Sure...Y not... tis is wat most of us would like... Livin happily ever after.... But lets consider tis.... How abt an ugly person falls in love wif a beautiful/handsome person...they both love each other so much & also have a happily ever after story as well.....Would u still consider tis type also a wonderful ending.... Guess some would start thinkin tat tis ain't rite at all.... Some would even think tat the ugly person shouldn't exist at all.... Now here is the problem in the world we face 2dae.... Tis is quite a realisitic world.... You got the looks, then u sure have mani pple going after u.... U dont have.... well, its looks like u are down on ur luck.... Well, personally, i don't think tis is the wae we shld be like.... Our mind have been clouded by the media on wat love is really about.... Many people have been searchin for their Mr/Ms perfect all their life... yet... none of them could find such person & have wasted their life lovin a person who dosen't exist then someone who is there to love them....

Yi cheng was rite on one thing, even if u do find ur so called Mr/Ms perfect... they aint tat perfect after all, they surely have some flaw in them.... i noe of a fren tat once told me tat she found her Mr perfect.... he had VERY good looks, so called "GOOD" personality & tat he was the one for her....But wouldn't u noe.... they broke after a month... the reason? He aint tat great aniwae, he treats me like some sort of prisoner... must report everything to him.... Dont let me go out wif frens & other stuff like tat....So is he tat mr perfect aniwae? Well, others would be like rejectin anyone else who tries to love them in order tat they will hope to meet "them" one day....

How abt those who give excuses jus because they don't like the person.... Like, "I'm sure u will find someone else better then me, someone else worth of ur love" Come on, tis is bullshit! You are jus avoidin the person...Are u easing his/her pain of love when u sae tis? Not really....

Now here is my answer to u all people.....
All those of u who have pple who are goin after u... expressin their love to u yet u reject them becoz u think tat u are not "worth" their undyin love.... Then u can give urself a slap.... Where all u pple juz complain tat there is aint love in the world & tat no one loves u at all.... Then those who tried to love u & u reject them, arent they the one tryin to give u love.... Irony aint it? U pple would onli understand the significance of love when u lose tat someone who is tryin to love u or tat he/she has change into someone else u like and they don't have ani feelings for u..... U pple won't noe how they feel unless u were in their shoes for jus a dae.... Till u taste the pain they are goin thru....

I had been thru tis like twice, i can understand the people who are experiencing tis at the moment, to u pple who are sufferin in pain becoz of love, don give up on life or love, but have faith tat the person u tired lovin will some dae understand tat heart of urs.... Whereas for u pple who are rejectin these people, pls think abt their feelins, they are the one who needs to love pple as well... give them a chance... somedae u will find tat tis person might be the one for u..... Never sae never to a person.... but instead, give him/her tat chance to prove it to u tat u are worth of their lovin.....

Its been a while

2004-10-06T19:28:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i have came back in here to add abt my life... Well, now i am back & i shall try to write abt everything tat has happen for the past few months..... Well, finally met the girl, Teck Ming, really love her tat much but haiz..... she aint goin to really accept me... told me tat she wont give me a chance at all..... Maybe she dosen't noe me tat well yet.... but each day i keep tellin myself tat she is worth so much of my love, thought it may seen to be kind of painful when she told me tat she won't give me a chance at all.... i am still tryin to forget all the pain.... life really turn upside down after tat dae when she told me tat she don like me..... now every time i see her... it seems tat i am on bad terms wif her... i don't wan her to feel so akward whenever she sees me.... i jus wan her to be the way she used to be when we both met & sae hi to each other for the first time.... i miss so much the daes talkin to her online.... i jus pray & hope tat God will some how show tis heart of gold of mine to her... thought i may not have the looks.... i posses onli a heart of love.....Whenever i think of her... my hearts beats faster & faster.... Thinkin of her alwaes makes me happy.... but seein her sad or sick ahces my heart..... Wonder if she ever goin to consider tis kind of thinkin as being foolish or wat.... if onli she knew tat there is someone who is there to love her..... And tats me..... but it seems tat love is blind & i have been past, not even noticed....Sad to sae.... But i never given up hope tat i & her will somehow be lovers one dae.... Everyone shld be given a chance to be loved..... no matter wat they may be like... now tats wat i believe..... this is wat i call as True love.....

damn tired....

2004-07-02T20:21:00.000+08:00

Have been travelling to sch like the past 3 days or so.... gotta wake up early....like 6am in the morning.. then 2dae was suppose to be CLS games day.... paid $3 but still never went... didn't felt like to.... so did Jing Bin, Tze Hao, Thomas & Wee Keon... really felt sorry for asking them to sign up & then never go..... haiz.... yesterdae was worst... had to go out & do flag dae.... was assigned to Novena.... but then didn't really give a shit.... went with wei ming, Thomas & Wee keon to clementi where we stand outside NTUC, collecting money frm people..... the outcome was rather good.... some people dontated like $2 & $1.. though some people might think its nothing... but to us it really meant alot to the people whom we are helping with tis president challenge.... i collected like $33.88..... i wonder where the 3 cents came frm..... just found it in the tin when i opened it up to count wif my tutor..... had so much fun wif my secondary school mates in SP for the past few daes.... Sch abt to start soon... like tis coming modae.... wonder hows it gonna be like.... hmmm.....

All Gone Wrong

2004-06-30T16:20:00.000+08:00

Everything has been going really wrong tis june holidays. My younger brother was a total idiot.... Gave him a chance to play in basketball team again & yet he still takes it for granted, tis no the 3rd time... yet tis is the 5th chance tat we have gave him.... Yet, he shows his gone damn fucKinG BloodY attitude.. As if the whole world owe it to him.... My mum & dad are really in a sorry state now.....especially my mum, who constantly worry for my brother.... whenever i see her in tat sad state, i can't help but think why my brother dosen't change a single bit..... We lay down rules for him so tat he could return back to basketball.... yet he dosen't really follow them.... still shows his fucking attitude last nite.... my mum got really pissed off while trying to call his teacher in charge & the sch.... but all she could get was no answer.... Damn fucking retarded the school.... i still can understand if the teacher turn off their phone, but no able to get through the school phone is another matter.... Now she is off to sch to find my brother.... In another few days time i am about to start sch.... i wonder how all tis problem at home are going to be by then.... all i could do is pray tat it ends soon...... So much problem like tis, yet my brother of mine thinks tat tis is all nothing.....

New PhoNe

2004-06-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

Finally got my new phone at last.....Nokia 6230!!(i noe some pple thinks its not really tat great aniwae, plus its price is like very high, still i like tat phone....) but now i still have to let it charge for at least another 8hrs or so.... Spend like the whole day at home watching Tv & sitting in front of the computer. Yesterdae went back to sch to help out with the training of P.A members in school, was glad to see Midsean, Shao ming & ivan as well. simon also came back to sch to help out as well, so did Dennis.... Non the less, it was enjoyable helping them out, then there was tis boy by the name of guan wei, really had some attitude prob. but still i found tis guy rather amusing.... He could do lots of stuff in a really short time, at first i thought he was one the real trouble maker in the CCa... but still, he proved me wrong & now i think that keeping him in P.A may come in handy.... Well, anyway, the whole group of us( Dennis, Simon, Me, Midsean, Shao Ming & Ivan) met up with Eddie, Caspar & Lead Whye, to have dinner with both our ex P.A teachers, Ms Lim SH & Ms Tan CK for dinner @ Plaza Singapore. We had Pastamania tat nite & could u imagine tat ms lim (now teaching in RI) treated the whole lot of us for dinner, tat has been like the 3rd time she treated such a grp like us... we were really grateful.... After dinner, we all went upstairs to the 1st floor where we sat at Macdonalds open air tables, & chat for another 2 hours before leaving.... But still, i had to go back to school todae to get my 'O' level cert which i left it with Shao ming the dae before.... so forgetful of me..... Bought the music CD 'Speed Up', i think its a crap CD, knew i shldn't have bought it.... Around 8pm 2dae, my whole family went out together for a walk at AMK.... i just hope 2molo will be a good dae as i would be heading down to the GYM to sweat my fats out, hope 2molo will really be good to sweat off my excess Fats.....

Totally Exhausted....

2004-06-08T12:45:00.000+08:00

Juz woke up..... now its like 12.30pm.... Had a really late nite last nite.... went for my class gathering at Downtown east there....didn't really ate much though... Coz before tat, around 3pm....i had sake sushi with my church fren.....Was really kind of full.... but even before tat, went to catch a movie with my church fren, Harry Potter & the Prisioner of Azkaban.....Then after lunch, went off to meet wei ci & dennis at bugis in a arcade centre.... Watch them play some sort of a card game football, was really interesting though.... Then after tat, we took a train to pasir ris, there we wait for another fren of us, Emily, before going over to the chalet there for BBQ. Not mani of us went to the BBq.... then most of us who were there were just talking to one another abt their schools or work. Some of us didn't ate much there, while others like kenji, roche & edward were eating alot of stuff, Guss they are realy hungry...... But everyone started leaving the place like around 10+pm.... hmmm.... but i guess it was good gathering though mani other didn't came.... i still got to see my other good frens....

HillSong concert....

2004-06-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

Yawnz.... Juz got back frm supper @ CHOMP CHOMP..... Drank 1 big glass of Sugar cane.... Now very full..... WEll, todae have been a really great day. spent the early afternoon with my YMM steven..... Had lunch wif him @ one of the famous beef noodles @ somewhere north bridge rd there.... Can u believe it, 1 bowl of noodles like tat cost abt $5+..... Talk abt being famous..... Then after lunch... he took me to The SKS bookstore where he was doing shopping for some christians books.... After tat, we went all the way back to Serangoon Gardens to meet my other youth group member for study grp.... Had a drink with him @ coffee bean before leaving the place. At abt 3.30pm, Me & my borther had to meet Jestyn, Jonathan & other church youth @ Bishan MRT, We were going for the Hillsong concert at the indoor stadium... We had to be there early, if not we will be lining-up for quite some.... The concert was spectacular, there was lots of singing of songs, And we had a really good time there. The whole thing ended at abt 10+ pm, then we took a bus all the way back to Gardens for supper..... Now tat i am back, & done with my today Blog, i think i shall go take a bath & go right to bed......

outing..

2004-06-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

Todae went out wif my mom & brother to Buona Vista to get his lost card.... then also had me TERTIARY STUDENT EZ-LINK CARD done at the station... after tat, went all the way to Jurong point, juz wanted to show them the place, they never been to there yet. Then had lunch at jurong point.... After tat, did some shopping around the shopping complex, bought some stuff for myself & my brother, then went down to somerset to do shopping for clothes. After 3 hours, we took the train down to Bishan where we walk for another 1 1/2 hour @ junction 8, bought some stuff for myself again tis time & then headed off for dinner at one of the coffee shop near the shopping complex. After dinner, we went to Fairprice to shop for basic necessities before going to the multi-storey carpark to collect our car... Now i am here writing my bolg for the dae, juz finish watching a movie like 10 mins ago.... Had a really enjoyable dae 2dae with my mom...... though now my legs are like kind of stiff.... hmmm..... now still unable to slp though, i guess i will surf the net for a while longer before going to bed..... YAWNZ!

Pri sch fren....

2004-06-02T18:09:00.000+08:00

Was out wif my pri sch fren todae, Brandon..... Haven seem him like for so long... Now hes back to study in singapore, have been like in perth for the past 2 years or so...Its really great seeing him again.... Spend the whole afternoon walking abt city area, wanting to find a cinema to watch TROY, but almost all the cinema were full. So we didn't felt like watching animore.... Made fun of eugene who was working there.... hahahaz... then went down to find my fren, yong kun at Carrefour.... had a really enjoyable day walking abt mani places, but still could not buy anithing, most of the stuff i wan were like really expensive.... haiz... living standard in singapore like damn Fucking high.........So boring at home....haiz...